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Atari 7800 Composite Mod and Review - Duration: 15:00.

Hello and welcome to another episode of the 8-Bit Guy.

Today, I'm going to be attempting to modify this Atari 7800.

Now, for those who are unfamiliar with the console, let me tell you a little bit about

it.

So this is the 7800, mine is not in perfect condition, unfortunately.

But that also means it is a good system to mod since I don't need to worry about keeping

it in original condition.

In fact, that's why I don't want to mod my 2600.

This is the power supply.

I usually label mine so I don't get them mixed up.

I also keep the wires rolled up like this to keep the wires from getting kinks in them.

On the front you have two joystick ports.

And next to those you have two unmarked switches.

These are actually the difficulty level switches.

On the rear, you have that funky power connector, The RF output jack, and here's another crazy

thing.. a switch that selects between square or circle.

Apparently this is to select channel 3 or 4 as your transmit channel on the RF port.

So, one of the things that makes this console so interesting is that it can play all of

your old 2600 games like Space Invaders, Yars' Revenge, and Missile Command.

But it can also play its own, more advanced games.

This is the only 7800 specific game I have in my collection right now.

The cartridges do look more or less identical, which makes sense being the slot has to be

able to accept both kinds.

So let's hook this thing up and see how it works.

So we've got the power connector in..

Next the video cable, and finally a joystick.

I should mention that the Atari 7800 has its own special joysticks, which I don't currently

have.

But it can also work with standard 2600 or Commodore joysticks as well, but some 7800

specific games require the second button.

So, you might think you could just plug this straight into your TV or monitor's video

input jack.

But that won't work.

This is an RF signal, and besides where would the audio come from?

So, you'll need an adapter such as one of these old switch boxes.

And in my case, I need another adapter for the F-type connector since my TV is from the

1990s.

So, these things are a pain in the butt, and honestly, it's the reason I've never bothered

to collect any other Atari 7800 games or peripherals.

In fact, I'm really surprised that Atari didn't put a composite video connector on

the machine.

I mean, when the 2600 came out in the late seventies, really, pretty much no TVs had

composite on them, but by 1986 or 87 when the Atari 7800 was coming onto the market,

a lot of TVs did have those, plus there were computer monitors and other things, so I really

don't understand why it doesn't have composite on there.

So I bought one of these composite video conversion kits from ebay for around $10.

I'm going to find out how hard it is to install this, and hopefully it will make it

look better!

So, this mod will improve the output of both the picture and the sound.

However, I think the most important benefit that this mod gives is simply the ability

to connect it to more modern televisions and monitors without having to worry about finding

something with an, you know, analog RF interface.

So, here are all of the parts that came with the kit.

It really isn't a lot, actually.

So I suppose the first thing I should do is assemble it.

I'll just bend the leads on this transistor like this, and poke it down in the holes.

Then I'll solder it in place.

And, of course, trim the excess leads off.

That was simple enough, now onto these two resistors.

I'll just bend the leads here and poke them down in the correct holes.

Then I'll solder them in place.

And this part is all finished.

So, now it's time to open up the 7800 and take a look inside.

There are 5 screws on the bottom, which I'll take out fist, and it opens right up.

OK, so this shield has to be removed.

There are these little twist tabs that will need to be straightened out with needle nose

pliers.

Then, in theory, it should lift off.

However, mine was extremely stubborn, almost like it was glued down.

I realized I could still pull the board out, even with this shield on.

And, I eventually managed to work the shield loose.

Looking at this bottom plate, you can see some significant corrosion going on here,

and it looks like it started there, leaked its way over, and worked its way down.

And I've come to the conclusion that this was exposed to some water.

It probably went in here, and it came through right there in that hole for the cartridge

port.

And that's why there's.

That's why there's some corrosion on the board there and over here.

However, it seems to still work.

You can also see a lot of the corrosion down inside the plastic case.

So, I'm going to wash that out before we re-assemble it.

Lots of people joke these days that they want to see vinegar in every episode.. well, here

you go.

I'll scrub some of this on here and come back and check on it later.

So let's take a closer look at this board.

Over here we have the Maria chip, which gives the 7800 it's enhanced graphics capabilities.

Over here we have 4 KB of static RAM, followed by 4KB of system ROM.

So there's essentially 8K on board, and another 48K can go in the cartridge slot.

So this is the 6502 compatible CPU, although Atari calls it the Sally chip.

Keep in mind this is more or less the same CPU that runs the Commodore computers, Apple

IIe, Nintendo, and pretty much all of the Atari line of 8-bit systems.

Over here we have the TIA chip.

This known as the television interface adapter.

It's the exact same chip used in the Atari 2600 to give it video graphics and sound.

It's here for backwards compatibility with 2600 games.

However, it is also the sole source of sound on this machine, unless your cartridge has

its own sound chip.

This was a sore point on this particular console.

And last is the RIOT chip, which is just an input output controller for the joysticks

and other things.

OK.

So I just took this thing out and rinsed it with the garden hose and it looks a lot better.

The bottom RF shield looks much improved.

I can at least say the corrosion is neutralized so it won't continue.

According to the included documentation, I'm supposed to literally just cut out these two

resistors as they won't be needed anymore.

So I'll go ahead and do that.

At first I thought maybe I should desolder them because I figured I'd be attaching

wires here.

But nope, they are just going away for good.

So the easiest thing to do is to just to cut them out.

They also want these 4 wires removed and the official documentation actually says I should

break the entire little board off of the RF modulator.

But I do not like that approach for two reasons.

One is because it makes this process irreversible.

If the mod doesn't work out, I want to be able to put things back the way they go.

Number two is because you know, if the RF modulator is not going to work anymore, I

don't want to have the jack back there.

It might confuse somebody, maybe even myself later if I forgot the jack doesn't work.

So I decided to just remove the modulator completely.

I don't have any fancy desoldering equipment, so I just used solder-wick, or some people

call it desoldering braid.

Either way, it is cheap and it works.

So I was able to remove the modulator.

OK, so I thought I would turn my attention to the case plastics.

I need to drill 3 holes, so I usually put down some masking tape, which makes it easier

to mark on it where I need the holes to go.

I am spacing them a half-inch apart.

And the holes will go at the intersection of these marks.

This plastic is very brittle, so I will be starting with a small bit and working my way

up to a larger one.

Some people ask why I don't just use a special step drill bit.

Well, it's because I don't have one and most people probably don't either.

Plus they are expensive.

And this process works just as well for occasional use.

OK, so I'll do a test fit of the RCA jacks.

Looking good!

Next, I'll strip these wires.

Then I'm going to bend the edges of these grounding connectors to make them easier to

solder to.

I'm just going to run these over the wire like this.

The reason for this is that all 3 jacks will share the same ground.

So I've soldered this one on.

And I'll solder the other two once I attach them to the jacks.

OK, the common ground wire is finished.

I should point out by the way that this kit came with 3 jacks, one for video and two for

audio.

However, this console does not produce stereo sound.

So really, the two audio jacks put out exactly the same thing.

In fact, I thought about just eliminating one of the jacks and just putting one audio

and one video jack on the console.

OK, so all that's left to do now is to solder the wires to the main board where the RF modulator

used to go.

I'm just going to go ahead and do a test of the system just like it is before I bother

to re-assemble it.

And, it works! first try!

So, I captured some video from this thing using the RF output before making the modification.

And I wanted to be able to show some comparisons with how it looks now.

So this is Missile Command, and now let's take a look at it on composite.

The image is noticeably cleaner.

Let's take a look at Space Invaders.

The sold background really shows off the interference on RF.

And now here's the composite version.

OK, so Yars' Revenge revealed something odd.

Pay close attention to the background sound on this game.

Now listen from composite.

It sounds different.

I think the signal is too hot for my capture device.

However, I'm not going to worry about it because it still sounds fine when played on

my TV.

Speaking of sound..

Here's Ballblazer on RF.

Wow, there's such a huge difference in graphics when you move to an actual 7800 game.

And, of course, it will look even better when I show you the composite version.

And it does.

However, on the composite version it actually has no sound at all.

So, Ballblazer is one of only 2 cartridges that contains its own sound chip.

It turns out this mod doesn't support these sound chips the way I've done it.

However, it is possible to fix this by the addition of one extra wire.

So that's what I'm going to do next, since I do actually own one of these games.

OK, since this switch is technically no longer needed anymore and it's in the way if where

I am wanting to solder, I'm just going to go ahead and desolder that.

Again, I'm just going to use some solder wick to remove the switch, then I'm going

to need to remove a small capacitor.

OK, so the switch is done, and I've already removed the solder for this capacitor, so

I'm just going to pull it out of there.

OK, so the extra sound wire for the cartridge pokey audio chip goes here.

OK, so the instructions with this kit said to throw away the RF shield, but I am unwilling

to do that, so I'm going to put it back on.

But I did run into one problem which has nothing to do with the shield.

The board will not fit back in the machine due to this wire, and there's really not

anywhere I can see to run the wire.

So I've decided to make another modification.

I'm going to cut off this small section of the shield, along with a corresponding

piece of the logic board.

This is a pretty small area of the board and doesn't even have any traces on it, so it

shouldn't hurt anything.

And, it does seem to fit perfectly now.

Now to just figure out where to mount that tiny little board that I added.

It came with this little piece of double-sided tape, however, my experience is that double-sided

tape lasts maybe a year or two at best and then it always falls off, so I decided not

to use this.

Instead I'm going to use this zip tie through the holes that used to hold down the RF modulator,

and that will hold the little board in a perfectly benign place without any problems.

Now I'm just going to put the cover back on and screw it back together.

So here's the finished product.

And I'll take an opportunity to try out Ballblazer again after the last modification.

And it does seem to be working just fine.

OK, so this mod certainly turned out very well.

This is a mod that is inexpensive, and definitely one that I would recommend doing.

In fact, I might actually consider buying some more native Atari 7800 games to play

on this console now, as well as getting the proper controllers for it.

But anyway, I may even look into modifying some of my other Atari systems as well.

Anyway, I have three quick announcements that I need to make.

The first thing I want to tell you about is the game I've been programming for the Commodore

64.

It's a real-time strategy game, only the interface has been simplified so that it can

be played with a keyboard and joystick instead of a mouse.

I've sort of adopted the look of the Ultima games, with a bit of Sim City thrown in too.

I think it's going to be a really fun game to play and I will be launching a Kickstarter

for it very soon, because I want to make this a fully boxed commercial release.

I have a page on my website for updates on this game, so check there for more information.

Also, I wanted to let you know that I will be at the Long Island Retro Gaming Expo this

August, again check the description field for more info.

Last year I went to a similar expo in Portland and talked to a great group of people, signed

some interesting artifacts for people, and I met a lot of really cool people, and generally

had a great time.

So I hope to see some of you there!

And the last announcement I need to make is that I've been invited to be part of the

upcoming documentary called "The Commodore Story," which is currently in a Kickstarter

phase.

Check that out, there is more detail in the description field.

Well, if you made it this far, then thanks for watching, and as always stick around and

keep checking back regularly for more content!

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Is Ascension Really Happening – The Role Of The Lightworker - Duration: 19:18.

Is Ascension Really Happening � The Role Of The Lightworker

By consciousreminder

Most definitely. The Earth has evolved to a point where she is ready to move to a higher

frequency dimension. This is a normal evolutionary step for all life in the universe. This process

is called Ascension. The dimension is the 5th. Everyone and everything ascends when

their energy vibration reaches a specific frequency of Light.

There are many different forms of life upon Earth, e.g. humanity, animals, minerals, trees,

etc. Anything that lives within the natural flow of Divine Order will have a similar band

of vibration to the Earth and as such can automatically ascend with her. An example

of living in Divine Order can be seen in the response of plants and animals to the different

seasons.

Everyone on Earth is deciding now, on some level, whether they choose to align with that

Divine order and so ascend to the 5th dimension or if they wish to continue their learning

in the 3rd dimension. Third dimensional learning involves experiencing many different situations

to help teach us greater wisdom and love.

Anyone involved in this learning, such as humanity and some animal species, are at different

points of vibration, depending on the learning attained. Living positively creates a high

level of vibration. Negative patterns, such as fear, create a lower vibration.

I DON�T KNOW WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING!!

You don�t need to know what you are doing! It is not part of the contract! It is usually

the mind or ego that wants to know the details and significance. Spirit is content to surrender

to Divine Order, simply doing what feels right, without hesitation, in total faith and trust

� and moving on to the next exciting moment. AM I A LIGHTWORKER?

If you have a desire to help � even if you don�t know what form that help may take

� the answer is yes. HOW DO I KNOW I AM HELPING?

If you are doing what feels right, regardless of what it is � you are helping. Providing

it resonates, you are doing what you came here to do. Interest, excitement and what

resonates and feels right deep within � will show your right path, moment by moment. Trust

your gut feeling.

DO I NEED ALL THE DETAILS TO PLAN MY WORK? Only if it feels right and excites you. When

we surrender and use intuition, we don�t generally need much of the detail and significance

that make up our 3D world. If you do need details or need to �think it out,� it

will feel right in the moment to do that. This is quite different to working it out

through the mind because you think you have to. If you are meant to do something that

needs a particular energy, such as an eclipse or full moon energy, then providing you plan

intuitively � that will be present. Mostly, you could go ahead and plan without ever knowing

there was to be a full moon that day. However, there will always be exceptions. It could

be, for some Divine reason, you do need to know there will be a full moon that day. If

so, that will feel right! Generally, if you have planned intuitively, then everything

that is meant to be there, will be there. Some Lightworkers tasks do involve significance

and detail. Remember a feeling of rightness is senior to anything � even statements

by �authorities� or ascended masters. DO I NEED TO ATTEND LOTS OF WORKSHOPS?

Whether it is a workshop, a book or anything else, if it excites you � do it. If it doesn�t

� don�t. Just because it helped someone else, doesn�t meant it is right for you.

Your indication of excitement is your path. IS IT NECESSARY TO WORK ON FORMING A LIGHT

BODY? The vast majority of Lightworkers already

have a Lightbody. You left it stored �up there� until it was needed. You are in the

process of integrating it. If by any chance you don�t already have one, it is being

created. This is part of the balancing that takes place for ascension. You don�t usually

have to do anything in particular. It happens naturally, as you re-adopt your mastery. As

you surrender to Divine Order, it just happens. AM I WHERE I AM MEANT TO BE?

Well, check it. Ask yourself �If I could be anywhere in the world doing anything I

want, right now, where would I be?� If your answer is �right here doing what I am doing,�

then you are following your intuitive guidance in that moment and you are where you�re

meant to be. HOW DO I KNOW IF MY EGO IS IN CONTROL?

If you are looking around to see who has noticed, that is a pretty good indicator! You could

also ask yourself, �If I never tell anyone that I am doing this, and no-one is ever going

to know, do I still want to do it? Give yourself a truthful answer.

HOW DO I KNOW IF I AM LINKED TO A NEGATIVE ENERGY?

You have a great gift � it is the ability to sense when a situation or someone, does

not feel right for you. Be aware of your initial feeling and trust it. No matter if the whole

world thinks that that this presenter, technique, book, product or guru is simply the best,

trust your intuition every time. You could save yourself untold anguish! A lack of confidence

in yourself and a failure to trust your own knowing can really land you in hot water!

HOW DO I RECOGNISE TRUTH? Your heart tells you � every time. All you

need to do is trust your intuition when it speaks to you. As you read or listen to something,

note if anything does not feel right. It could be just a word or a sentence. Don�t dismiss

your feelings�.. never accept something that feels wrong.

WHY AM I LOSING MY MEMORY? Because you are leaving the 3D world where

one uses memory in order to know something. You are heading for the 5th dimension where

KNOWING is the way to operate. Your memory is disappearing to encourage you to use your

ability to respond intuitively. It is time now to simply know what you need to know in

any given moment. Losing your memory is a positive happening! It affects all age groups.

It applies particularly to Lightworkers who have been here a long time.

WHY IS MY EYESIGHT AFFECTED? Everyone wanting to ascend has to bring all

aspects of themselves into balance, in order to attain the right frequency of vibration.

This includes merging with your I AM Presence (which is the non-incarnated part of you).

Your eyesight has to adjust and it can become difficult to read small print in bad lighting.

(Other types of eyesight problems will have a different reason). You don�t need an optician.

Just buy a pair of the lowest magnification glasses until this adjustment is completed.

It may take a while. This depends on you. The more positive you are, the faster your

I AM can merge with you. The more the I AM merges, the more help you are given to be

positive. I DON�T SEEM TO GET EVERYTHING DONE?

You are leaving the 3rd dimension and �time� � and are heading to the 5th dimensional

realm of the �eternal moment.� There is no time in the 5th, because it is not required

for 5th dimensional learning. As the Earth moves to �no time,� her frequency increases

and she �loses� time. We have now lost 6 hours and 54 minutes on a day. This, combined

with the fact that you try to do things you think you �should� and �need� to do,

is the reason you are not getting it all done. Cancel all the shoulds, musts and needs in

your life. Do only what feels right. It may not always feel exciting and it may not always

be pleasant, but it will feel right to do it. Sometimes our emotions and thoughts get

in the way and confuse us. Put these reactions aside and check if it �feels� right.

ISN�T IT SELFISH TO DO WHAT FEELS RIGHT TO ME?

No, it is selfless. There is only one Divine Order. Everyone who operates within its natural

flow is in the right place, at the right time, giving the best help they can in that moment.

Have courage and trust that, despite reactions others may have, your actions are also right

for them (as indeed their actions are for you, if they are operating intuitively). Perhaps

their response comes from their mind or ego. Perhaps you are helping them bring their emotions

to the surface. You don�t need to know the why. Just do it, let go of any expectations

of what you think should happen and carry on with what feels right in the next moment�

and the next��and the next. HOW DO I STOP THINKING ALL THE TIME?

Take 10 minutes a day when you won�t be disturbed. Become still. Whenever a thought

comes into your head � say CANCEL. Continue to focus on the silence. Don�t give a seconds

of your attention to any thought. Don�t relax your discipline. Do this every day until

the mind realises it is no longer in control. The mind will become quiet, responding only

when called upon by you � Spirit. It doesn�t have to take long.

HOW DO I STOP EMOTIONAL CHAOS IN MY LIFE? Spot your lessons early. If you react to a

person or situation, be are of it and let your reaction go. If you don�t let it go

or you fail to notice your reaction, you will continue attracting tougher and more traumatic

situations, until you get the message! Spotting it early means you don�t get into horrendous

traumas! Don�t bury or suppress your emotional reaction. If you do, you�ll have to create

more situations to bring them to the surface again.

HOW DO I GET INTO MY HEART? Get out of your head and ego � and there

is no place left to go. Well OK, it is a matter of discipline. Do spot checks on yourself.

A few times in the day, ask yourself �Am I in my head or my heart?� If you see that

you�re thinking about what to do � stop, take a deep breath and move into your heart.

Ask yourself what you would like to be doing in that moment? What would make your heart

sing and not sink? Then do it. Or at least put the steps into motion to start doing it.

HOW DO I LEARN TO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY? Be aware every time you criticise, judge or

condemn anyone, including yourself. And stop doing it. Apply the discipline necessary to

demand from yourself, a positive, loving outlook. Never let yourself get away with a negative

thought. You may like to look at the following possibilities. �Everyone is doing the best

they can, with the data they have at hand�. �Everyone on the planet is helping everyone

else.� WHO WILL SHOW ME THE WAY?

You are shown signs in the everyday events of your life. All you need to do is be in

the present moment in order to see them. If you are �spaced out� or too �grounded,�

you can miss what is happening in front of you.

There are no leaders. The process of ascension requires a regaining of inner mastery. For

this reason, you are encouraged to seek your own inner truth and be your own leader. Remember

the Wizard of Oz and �follow the yellow brick road�? The answers are found within.

We are all equal. If you understand this, you will not feel called to hand your power

over to guru�s and leaders who we think are better than us. Often through a lack of

self-confidence, we hand our power to someone we believe may be helping. In this way, we

hope that at least then we will be helping. Handing our power over can be as simple as

adoring a photo of someone and �thinking� your energy in their direction. Be aware of

the links you make � some are not what they seem to be!! Your first inner gut reaction

shows you. HOW DO I ENSURE I AM CONNECTED TO HIGHEST

LIGHT? Decrees can be used to assist for this. To

ensure you are aligned to Highest Light, do the following: �

�By Divine Decree, In the Name of God, I invoke the Sacred Violet Flame, to transmute

in this moment � every thought, link, alliance, connection or allegiance to any negative Being,

energy or object � that I have made � knowingly or unknowingly � in this Universe, where

this is not in accordance with � the Highest Source of All Creation and the Divine Plan

for Earth.

I AM� now fully aligned in all my lower and higher bodies to � the Highest Source

of All Creation. I give permission under Universal Law, for

any and all sacred codes and mathematical programmes that I am responsible for, that

I carry, have carried or will carry, to be brought NOW into a state of purity in accordance

with Divine Order and to be held in such a state forever, in accordance with Divine Higher

Will. So Be It. It is done.� You will need to say it 3 times.

The easiest way to stay free of non-optimum connections is�. never doubt your ability

to know what is right for you. DO I NEED TO BE ABLE TO CHANNEL?

Everyone is a channel of Light and healing in some form. Regarding channelling specific

material from the ascended realms, if this was a part of your agreement then, ego aside,

becoming a channel will resonate with you. If all the planet�s billions of people were

meant to channel as a pre-requisite to ascension, we might be here for another 26,000-year cycle!

If you are meant to channel, then you will already be trained for it (as were all Lightworkers

for their particular jobs), so you won�t need to go somewhere to �learn to channel.�

Although channelling appears to have some glamour attached to it, it is just another

job. It doesn�t mean someone is more evolved or special. If channelling is addressed with

humility, surrender and service, then a high level of truth can be brought through. If

these qualities are not present, channelling can be distorted as it is filters through

the lower bodies. Because there was no original agreement made with the higher realms, people

who channel from an ego desire, often encourage lower dimensional beings who profess to be

from higher dimensions. We all ultimately learn the value of following what truly resonates

in our heart to do. Therein lies the joy. HOW DO I ACT AS A MASTER WHEN I FEEL LIKE

A VICTIM? Stop feeling like a victim. What is left is

the alternative � a Master. HOW DO I RECOGNISE MIS-INFORMATION?

If you feel something isn�t right, it isn�t! Trust your inherent ability to distinguish

the difference. Nothing is more reliable than your own inner

guidance. Trust it with all your heart and soul. Be your own counsel. If you perceive

a negative energy, you don�t need to also decide that this energy is good or bad, right

or wrong. That is a third dimensional belief pattern of judgement.

The goal of negative energy is to further people away from source. As a Lightworker,

this would not be a goal you would align with, so you may choose to withdraw your support,

energy and power from this activity. However, you don�t also need to withdraw your unconditional

love. �Unconditional� means just that. It doesn�t mean �I will only love you

if you work with positive energy and do things that I think are right!�

WHEN WILL I ASCEND? This occurs when it is completely right in

Divine Order. You don�t get whisked out of here at an inappropriate moment. It is

not something that is done to you! Ascension is a do-it-yourself affair. You go when you

are ready. For ascension to occur you will have completed what you came to Earth to do.

Any dense energies in your emotional and mental bodies will have been transmuted into a higher

frequency. You will be in balance. Your outlook will be one of joy, harmony and peace. You

will not still be making statements like �When the heck do I get out of here!� and �I

hope this is my last physical incarnation!� Your desire to leave will be equal to your

desire to remain. When all this is in order, you may find yourself ascending with your

Twin Flame and heading for the �completion of mission� banquet!

SO WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? Be yourself. This means LET GO of everything

that is not YOU � all the barriers you have erected, all the beliefs, justifications,

criticisms, judgements, negative thoughts, unwanted emotions, the �shoulds, needs and

musts� and the effort you put into controlling your life.

The idea of letting go or surrendering control can bring up fear in us. But there is nothing

to fear. You don�t lose your identity and become absorbed into some great unknown! Surrendering

means you are more in tune with the consciousness of the universe. This helps you act with a

deep understanding of what is best for whole Self. The real you � Spirit � has a caring,

love and depth of compassion that goes far beyond what you experience though your emotional

body. Surrendering brings an ease and joy to life that will make you wonder why you

didn�t do it earlier.

You are � giving the best help possible; completing your agreements; balancing your

karma; merging with your I Am Presence; integrating or creating your Lightbody; becoming the God

qualities you have chosen to reflect on Earth; transmuting any dense energies in your lower

bodies; resuming your power, wisdom, abilities and mastery; passing or exchanging any necessary

codes to people or places; receiving highest guidance; experiencing a stunning sequence

of synchronicities; on your ascension path; connecting with the right people; attracting

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How to Rebuild Trust - Ash Kirwan - Duration: 17:44.

Good afternoon beautiful peoplel

ashkirwan.com.au bringing you

another video on how to rebuild trust

which is as i can assume and imagine

that you would probably be aware that

it's a big thing in today's worldl now to

go turns news on to see that people's

trust doing miss land and broken and

destroyed of a multitude of levels or if

you start to see that sort of carry out

and tater that's going on in the greater

world around and none of us are except

for that because intellectual property

the internet bullying political agenda

corporate strategy the excessive

workload workplace burnout mental health

issues family dysfunction marriage

divorce breakups messy breakups and

youth issues in a multitude of different

spectrum and arenas are starting to a

rise in our community quite vividly and

this is kind of where I think it's

really important for us now to start to

as its species I'm going to go back by

say that but as a species we need to

start to learn how to rebuild trust in

that cell phone for me I'm going to go

out and say it starts with a big dose of

humility in rebuilding trust redundancy

that means but like for me to bring for

me rebuild trust with you is to

ultimately have this humility to admit

when I'm wrong they're not to speak

dramas and negativity about other people

around me unless I'm willing to actually

speak that to that person because for me

that's a really big dose of scenery it's

something i've found is true in my world

if I exist within the paradise of

different social groups and family

groups and yet not partaking

conversations and put forward content in

the form of my self expression in

regards in relation to another person or

a call company or a brand whatever in a

way other than what I'm willing to

actually communicate effectively with

that person and say directly to that

version or the company of that brand

then ultimately I'm partaking in a level

of psychological abuse features are

willing to say things behind probably

else in fact or not I'm actually willing

to say to them so therefore when I have

people that are willing to come to me

and tell me what my problems are tell me

what what my shoes are wanting to hear

that I wanted to understand it because

it shows me parts of myself that I

haven't been out of four see for myself

by me being out to have the ability of

defeat you got to see where these people

are coming from I don't have to agree

with their right most of time I died but

it means I get to a chance to explain

why I see act do or are otherwise i am

and be the ways I be and do the things I

do quite repeatedly and it actually

feels lot stronger bond and those

relationships you know I can't tell you

how many dark and clearly lightning

filled death-defying conversations I've

had with my mother and father of the

last 38 years actually i'll go that far

of saying but it's been quite talking

and rewarding in the same essence

because like rebuilding those those

relationships with mum and dad's being

it's been huge mammoths all but is

nothing short of tormenting learning to

love people that put you in a mental

institution four times who raised your

the fundamentals old a family value

system and a religion based upon open

communication effective communication in

order to give back to one vision one

goal and while and belief because it was

totally obliterated in the segregation

of the deterioration of their own

marriage relation because i live

completely oppositely to the values a

abbreviated lead and obsessively

compulsively held each other in regard

to they completely create a profile

profane obliteration of the family

values that they believe teach me my

brother actually

the best way to put it however let's not

inter detriment to say that they about

people it's not to say that my dad

should be punished severely adjusted to

the doctor the dust of health for

everything they've done to me know what

I mean by that is giving me a chance to

actually understand the composition the

context and the content of two people

spies we totally did not partake in the

understanding and the open communication

in working through issues to create

resolve in order to have an effective

communicative relationship that could

grow to a greater level of abundance and

rebuild trust quite substantially based

upon the faults and the insecurities

that showed up persistently within their

relationship that's a bit of a mouthful

however moving right along this very

area of standing here the kitchen this

is one of the beautiful places I like to

build trust and people in my life

features help really healthy lives

healthier healthy wife now the mind

healthy body healthy spirit put it

however you like however what you put

into your for you what you feed and

nourish your body with in the form of

food thought actions activities peer

group career etc hobbies is going to

permeate all areas of your life

including relationship so for me this

area here in the kitchen is a beautiful

place to build trust because if you're

happy if your relationships are

conducive to effective communication

people are going to want to help each

other cook dinner they're going to want

to socialize in the kitchen they're

going to enjoy a morning coffee and

stirring each other up your ass and have

it a wrestle in the kitchen while

they're doing the dishes you know

generally having fun and serious people

aren't having fun and Aaron and I mean

fun in other areas their life because

this is where you get your energy to go

out and all that other great stuff but

you do it out the world because if

you're an entrepreneur and you do some

great stuff in the world you know just a

great stuff in here how long do you

think that's going to last and how long

do you think you're going to be able to

sustain that level of energy when we are

in Superman you

yeah performs a theory class with some

serious skill levels but you don't get

this part correct those skill sets are

sustainable for any level of excellence

for any extended period of time at that

is a given scientific fact without me

bringing up any statistics we all know

that do we not and we are not going to

have any trouble here argue with me I

wanted to put the comments in the box

below let's be fit out which is a la

backwards and love that shit because

you've all got stories going on your

world and that's why I'm doing these

solve the problems of the stories people

got going on in the world it was never

greater level of trust through my

humility of meeting defeat so if you've

got any grief or beef on anything year

for see or hear me say go to town on

number one Ashley's a comment box down

there and let's get this conversation

started because that is the whole point

of these videos is to teach you how to

understand how mental health is a direct

outcome from your family dynamics that

the value system that was acquainted to

you and talk to you in your use growing

up through your perceptions of your

environment around you manage your

school your peers your friends your

family and the geographical locations

and demographics that you grew up with

in and that is from those things that we

will find the keys to unlock the

perception to our greater potential for

the future in every single one of us

regardless of whether we come from a

higher socio-economic group or a low

story short social economic growth

because I've gone from being in the

middle class socially socio-economical

watching my mother and father smash one

another to obliteration physically and

psychologically to squeeze and weasel

their way into the upper middle class

only to act like complete wankers and

then have two discrete each other

through the law court and drag me my

brother through the gutter rats of

arrows like Halle need understand why

the hell they were being such idiots I

need to be scum rolled back into the low

socio-economic groups with the seat and

chill with some of the coolest people

I've known and then climb and scrap my

way out of it

see some of our firm is upper class

social economic group absolutely living

in the mythical disarray of the darkness

of their own soul and inner torment so

there is no convincing me that there is

no right or wrong or the only level of

money is going to raise your level of

happiness or self-worth or depression or

cluster bomb and mental fuck of what's

happened in the past moving forward to

correct whatever I Palace all you want

to create the only way we can do that is

to rebuild trust in the relationship

scale around us and put first things

first and build a team that people who

we care about and care to be around

because they believe what we believe and

to see what we perceive and want to have

fun to the sound level and degree that

we want to I could have kept that right

of going but I'm not here to be a part

and I'm not here to be complete

entertainer on the clan on a goose and I

like to be that I can also be equally

grumpy and go to absolute fucking

squander your on motherfuckers because

they get crankier than my granddad in

the aims I sure half a carton of evil

you export about 10 when he blew that

was quite site doesn't i can tell you i

was about its best all the kids and

grandkids will climb down the trigger

and you know it son that was no hanging

around Athens at 61 to think you're

about to get busy Australia's happen

interesting parts of happy attractive

background had an interesting culture

development and we since the wars ever

since the community development become

more of an artistic size in our

Australian Adi battle attended see a

culture of 20 we made down and go around

being the rugged Ozzie turns into the

tall poppy syndrome of actually being

obnoxious and arrogant those house and

would come along Miami clearly turn you

use on you'll see how far we've come you

know with a crack epidemic there's a lot

of research done in to drive

use alcohol abuse gambling abuse and

even to a certain extent domestic

violence that a lot of our issues and

emotional armory stuff it's showing up

that are having up num our pain in

destructive ways they addiction are all

coming from our lack of connectability

and ability to connect with one another

emotionally and resolve our issues and

live an ever greater prosperous happy

fulfilled life and one thing I'll come

to understand myself as being on the

hamster wheel and running faster and

becoming more of a worker holy to make

more money to prove your point you can

afford their thing it's not really

building trust and resolving mental

health issues or making any of us feel

any better about ourselves it's while a

bitch so much what do you love doing

when you've got a few spare moments in

your life that give you the space to

really glow and bring yourself to like

what is that you are then have you

noticed that time sleeping out fully

self-express yourself in there there's

make clearest away to be understood in

the way you intend to be understood as

being when you be that you're healthy in

your life with your schemes think line

with your body's been flourishing we

draw systems of work around sent the

body clocks working your bouncy embedded

annoying you know routine your patents

are all flowing smoothly go that way

you've had two consistent flow in life

and clean when you just bento be

scattered argue with everybody not

anything correctly not giving a shit

never trade for a while I don't think I

need to wait for an answer for that do I

go look around you if you'd like to

build more trust yourself and the people

in your life I challenge you to start in

the kitchen think throughout the

conversations and the relationships you

have in the kitchen who do you have any

kitchen who do you convert in the

kitchen how do you converse with them in

the kitchen what you can to converse

over when the different emotions of

those conversations are going on and

hacking you're sad or angry and the

arguments what top food

in those moments challenge yourself to

look at this style how do you rebuild

trust how are you going to rebuild trust

if you've got broken trust in your

relationship maybe somebody cheated on

you or maybe something's happened is

been a fight there's been any level of

domestic violence psychological pieces

been months of not being understood or

maybe your partner's been telling

stories you haven't wanted to speak

photos to other people to other people

right in products like parties and all

this sort of shit going on what is your

broken trust issues and how are you

going to rebuild or what format and what

rules and what conditions are you going

to put in place in order to rebuild that

trust because those my friend Ozar your

boundaries by knowing about it you would

know where your trust issues lie and you

will know when it will step over that

mark and is your best interest to learn

to communicate effectively and demand to

be understood in those times they're not

being understood and learn to move away

from those relationships is there to

file the toxic side of the more in the

emotional and resolve to resolve those

issues as they show up to rebuild the

trust while in the quickest ways you can

do this very kitchen because if you're

in the kitchen with the people that you

love that you're supposed to have trust

and build trust consistently with and

get a name ever deeper relationship

connection with over time because that's

what sharing your life ultimately is

meter depth of marriage are autonomous

you get to know someone ever deeper

level and embrace the true depth of

their identity based upon the

development over time you truly love

someone you will want to see them

through the hydrogen line and accept

them for their good and bad faults want

to see their race or network a level of

potential of themselves so therefore in

the kitchen is the perfect chance you

have those conversations that are hard

to have that are hard to resolve that

are emotionally sticky that really need

to happen if you look into your life so

at least the other remember why it took

far too long happen what if i get you

like well what they were wearing well

now if you take it on your into your

minds way of that you can start to open

up these conversations we're in the

kitchen over time and actually move into

the more and more and see where people's

emotional arms only see where that are

emotional I'm sure you get different

people different agents have different

levels

sure the incapability and accepting

different emotional conversations which

is some people don't actually understand

emotion my parents are in essence is

part of a baby boomer here in Australia

which means that they don't really have

much all of emotional connection with

itself because that don't even know how

many emotions there are in the human

condition how many emotions do you know

how many can you explain do you realize

there is more than a couple more than a

couple hundred emotions within the human

availability there is actually around

7,000 human emotions that you can

experience it how many of them can you

name or know that you go through one

particular day because I know my parents

in their relationship never stopped 21

times now one other emotions not one

another's emotions or their emotional

response of different subjects or why

they are emotionally responding to

something so that support twice along

the board of don't go there don't go

there which meant they end up things

from the most immature people I've ever

known that still know which I'm

accepting and loving that for which is

then physically and emotionally beating

each other up for so many years kept

them confined to the immaturity of their

own inability to step into emotional

conversations to resolve them to evolve

them to grow as individuals and they

cost themselves psychologically and

damaged themselves in the latter part

their lives which is around the ears or

maybe from fashion shit out of each

other through there but they aren't

about the lateral load which has the

facilitation on lateral thinking

thinking laterally connecting

emotionally and effectively

communicating people so they've got

psychological damage those parts of

their brain which affects them in their

ability to be mature in their fifties

and sixties when they should be the

highlight and twilight years of their

life so what i can do is shit a little

internal tears of those people but they

created themselves so what are you

creating for yourself in and how are you

going about building and resilient doing

revision trust levels within the

relation see and care about so much

because sometimes people now life for

ourselves sometimes our apples but a

reason and if we actually love them for

those reasons I'm stopping alpha

quantum at the hardware is mom and dad

maybe you will too maybe you are I'm

hoping you take the easy one take the

easy way man take the easy way

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Weight Loss Stories - Duration: 15:20.

hi guys, ashkirwan.com.au and in

this video I'm going to give you one of

my weight loss stories from in the

journey of losing 50 kilos over the last

eight years however this story of 10

years ago and it was when I was working

on Roy Hill of cattle station 125 kilos

and have been pretty much i would say

ostracize about every person i've known

in my family my peer group everything

although i went through a large level of

mental health and choose to get to that

point and the bigger picture of that was

that a lot of people just couldn't stand

by and watch what was going on in my

world so chronic down myself desert and

searching in writing and the desert of

all things you do when you're under 25

kilos in extremely overweight working on

a cattle station in 45 degree heat

however did his story like i was doing

forums that's driving around about

400-500 collars a day starting out water

boards to make sure that the the animals

that livestock cattle cows and the balls

on the cattle station of a million

anchors actually had water from day to

day to survive because in the desert in

Australia the one thing that keeps

animals flourishing and ain't growing is

the fact that they've got fresh water to

drink itches a lot idols out to walk

great distances nor to get food not

likely though and 125 kilos I think I

kind of had a little bit of cushion

hello and the stories on when they had

stopped and rocked up on site there's me

I bust the need for being an idiot down

on a creek streaming overweight 19 with

the land cruiser music tunes cranking

with the lights over the creek dancing

like an idiot I've rolled mini and I end

up in crutches a lot for months and as

much as I can mark about analysis it was

not nice at the time like I didn't have

health insurance but didn't have anyone

to call me a cheap and to be honest with

you what mom and dad was just like yeah

mom wasn't even talking to data at the

time but that mr. cycle we want me to do

about you looking time for any new with

it and so there's a lot of this cost

unions are going on in the back of my

life and this was a lot of the emotional

turmoil showed off me today that quarter

of this may be bounced over because when

the headstock and rocked up he sees

meeting is over a dude on crutches

doable for runs and 30s in his right

what do you are in fact rah rah rah and

then from that on my nickname become too

bad because for obvious reasons that I

liked any porridge in the morning which

extreme amounts of honey on it and so me

and had Stockman had court volatile

relation to that point like you imagined

or approaches Australia roadway to Chloe

got this one what I have another being

I'm a cigarette quite of mentality not

really even ship is it's our level of

emotional I marry that we've built up to

be how to deal with people to give a

shit about how we look and how we are

and so we've created this a lot of

overweight straight man ever created a

greater level of abundant week in order

to counteract anybody smart comments and

actions about her obesity and so that

was very much mean like us very much

more emotional armory was sent really

high because you really have a strong

connection my life I really had nothing

to lose good four months Mimi had

Stockbridge's had his head bashing

relationships where him and soccer golf

to a mustering I'd gone through the ball

runs and then that was its cause every

time is the meeting in the middle of his

light jet button has forward arguments

the whole lot and then you know to be

honest it was probably the lowest point

of my my life actually you know and it's

funny for me now because that guy's

become a really good friend of mine oh

these and a write-up great role model

but a torn he was a business a lot ever

met and because I had nothing to go back

to I had nothing to run for all I had

nothing run tues I was just there that

was me so I was like fuck you mate right

we're going to go out its guns blazing

you so you go this way things go that

way I've got nothing to lose anyway so

we had a love-hate relationship where he

would find as many ways pull the living

piss out of me and make me feel bad

about myself from one obesity and what

I'm more than capable of doing

over time I just watch this guy you know

because it wasn't any of all right and

go there wasn't any worse I could feel

about myself I was pretty much bad and

so nobody can drag many Louis I really

didn't give a shit so it just becomes

fun to actually roll discover on this

guy back across the seabed of his /

frappe anytime I could all those a lot

sharper the oils so being overweight not

bad not stand up I sort of stood back in

sports ago after a long period of time

and you know it was a very arrogant

narcissistic like a real desert rat

hardened Ozzy bike and he can match it

like a lot of bushings are a lot of

Desert Rats are you know yeah like which

is God from longtime like he had a lot

of workers come and go because he was

just total on and I'd Thailand I'd get

dusted up by a few animals it's not an

easy job life some of those scrubs are

up around a time and then never been

caught before when they come in when you

finally get me to the odds by helicopter

wat buggy and I thought act like they

just won't warn you and guide you and

main just want to destroy you and try

and get back entity and it's not a great

thing against us as they died life in

court troops a lot of fun and a lot of

told them there's a lot of campus and

emotions flying flat out because that's

difference between people living in

striving and thriving or dying very

easily down a desert it can think and go

pear-shaped and terribly wrong very

quickly so it's why I love likes out

they are very sharp and very direct and

very straight up and down in a certain

industry it's a cutthroat industry where

you know it's not made a great industry

to their car or a lot of times that's

what a lot of these guys pretty brutal

what goes on out there in the desert

denouement i mean i remember i watch the

squat for months gastric workers and one

night we all go loses the first want to

go on the Boosters could be an ab

internet we not find coverage in that TV

we never 80 in that contact the outside

world up then the telstra pay slips

where you can log in through an external

phone and pay by direct debit to call

out so it really walk on the wild west

at that stage nine and God come garlic

by gone through about 21 blokes one

light head stopping I'll Steve I decided

he'd come out and get on the business

and drink a few beers and things got

pretty rowdy or once again he got pretty

nice 60g after you know darkman beers or

solid I've decided to give another

mouthful sitting around the fire at

midnight you know I 100 also 120 kilos

of time the only really soft sand so I

added that Thomas it ran far of an

evening and enjoying that and then yes

different hours revered as it you know

taking getting my substance and

substance from life from the little

things like the pitches the picturesque

scenery of the desert there's random

spray animals in say running around the

place of dal dhokli the dingoes the

camels for horses the snakes or lizards

the budget the Eagles but as much as you

think the desert is dead lit which it is

there so much about a lot either I'll

come on cook took great pleasure Eden

take that stuff you don't you have a

diploma upon our being our lane the

nine-minute of know possibly by fides

knowing to go anyway might as well found

manage orbit for that you know this why

not going to sit down and without that

doesn't is it it's almost better lolz i

could be but was enjoying that i only

just started ripping into me in the

middle of night hasta psychic you know

on I talk to me like that I was like not

your problem is and I proceeded to give

this broken their fault and it wasn't

just being nasty i was actually

constructing about because i've washed

at the site on because you wanted to be

communicated with its going yet to be

very direct about we said and made a

point which is our t seem like you to

speak up or spread behold apiece you

might do with goods we get out on me

like that was malice april straight down

the line spider spider BAM and it's live

on after him but was actually a cult of

cartman I thought the speech up and put

the cards on the table just like you'd

asked for so long is 925 hundred twenty

kilos at that time could stand on one

leg could even straight the second need

without having the crutches on and no

giving this bloke advanced or at

midnight so clearly just what the

flawlessly 15 times

at that stage that I remember just

looking at me like he for real and all

the rest of the lad sit around the fire

looking at me right BRB Hamid another

one stop me I haven't done what nobody

government CFO can go and none me and

this had stopped and had an ID window

went for about ten minutes flat out is

firing back aboard each other pin pin

pin pin pin detail detail detail spades

spades bone until the end he gets up and

he walks around at that time I had an

Akubra heart that I I'd we're quite

really don't have it on sit by Lauren

you know a little bit of this bit of

smile who I could and then he gets up

and you walk for everybody knows you

want fight da poo in it you think you're

a man you get up and forth like a min I

remember looking over shoulder bit like

you for real right with me 120 kilos

make I can't even stand up on two feet

on one crutches and you want to have a

fight with me and you're supposed to be

the leader of this shaman or have a look

at yourself man you're being an idiot

Gordon City indicate you the one who

said if anyone's got anything to say to

speak up or forever hold your peace all

I'm doing is actually speaking up I'm

over hope forever holding my pee so you

just sit down and keep talkin like you

promiscuous and keep saying that

everyone should speak up or forever all

their patience you never let me speak up

and just shut your fuckin mouth you old

bastard that my friend is probably one

of the three most glorified moments with

my B's life actually taking my power

back and say no you will respect me as a

sim thing because i know why i am and i

am no where i am not the other day

you'll still respect me as human being

if i'm going to be able to be allowed to

have a voice i'm going to use it in here

you go you can have it continue to keep

given to it well after midnight well

after quite a number of is and what i

would like to share with you in this way

or story is not even though that it's

very eco derivative storage for me is

not the idea of boosting our ain't going

to make our point but to bitch instruct

you about how we create interactions of

people and kids being obesity regional

people who put us down as very easy for

people

two main just to you Lester worthy or

feel fucking that we're not an

experience of fight back to that and

it's are easy to be very sharp tongue to

the equal level but not constructive of

us never ever going to get you out of

anywhere and it's not going to break you

into any wins or get you anywhere

substantial wine being really smart

driven about things so the thing but

about that moment that was great for me

so I was very constructive about what I

said to him even that was after a couple

of cartons vydor I had thought about

what I would say to him for a long time

and it sort of just roll up the tunnel

right then the next day I had got up and

you know you is pissed off because I'm

out in front of all the boys but after

that we become become really good mates

because like I had the greech and I had

the gumption stand-ups on the outside

the grid the gumption to stand up for

myself so what that one owner gave me

was a guiding my self-worth they taught

me to value myself and that's probably

the biggest lesson I've had to maintain

in order to maintain my weight loss by

changing my lifestyle to be more like a

wonder I had to raise my self worth

because up until that point but just let

people pull the piss outta me I just let

them run me through the ground and

fucking destroyed me that was in that

one moment that I stood up for myself

and did no this is not how this story is

going to fuck it end I'm taking control

of this shit and I'm fucking not going

to be treated like that no more fuck you

that I actually started to see a part

out that avicii apart out of having a

busted knee and a really struggle

through life it's what I really got my

fight back in here in my heart and my

guts and just went yet I'm taking this

back because I just let myself be pushed

around so much in my life that I just

didn't even know how to function

correctly in the vicinity of the

community so within that moment I'll

just like you know what just find my

sponsor and that is probably the best

tip I can give you for this

his weight-loss success tour is that

when you take your power back you give

you a chance give yourself a chance to

win give a chat and yourself permission

to create your own secret story and

start your own teach that story because

on the journey of your own life like you

hold the pen you hold the paper you

write the end of your story and don't

ever give in you know that point I've

given in odd or do you like accepted

losing for the rest of my life and

that's so just only 30 years of age and

you know it's in that moment that big

argument that I was like I don't spend

the rest of my life being treated like

this I don't know and there was a really

it was really humbling moment for me

after I really calm down when I look at

it now you know there's a lot of ego

reading that story it was like too many

local book around the campfire right by

you I become a good friend of mine for a

reason killers to something in that I

was willing to communicate not

completely just running through the mind

and degrading even though that was

coming the other way for six months I

mean not going overboard when I had that

opportunity or won his respect of one

his friendship because of what I stood

for that exact moment because he knew

any moment we can change our emotional

state and we can be empowered to move

towards something that's more conducive

of who we are as an expression about

this that's how we create success

stories you weight loss that's how we

get to that goal weight that's how is

that goals is by giving ourselves

permission to be yourself on any given

moment and be constructed about you know

believe in yourself believe the you are

you are a greater success story in your

weight loss journey in whatever ill

whatever that looks like you get out

there believe in you

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WHAT IS FAMILY VIOLENCE? - Duration: 15:55.

hi guys, ashkirwan.com.au and in this

video I'm going to talk about the

concept of what is family violence

because over the last few years in

Australia around the world it's been a

big conversation that's been going on

and happening about you know when what

is psychological abuse what is bullying

and what is domestic violence and where

do the boundaries below or whether they

stopped and something I've had to cross

some own journey through dealing with

extreme mental health issues and my

family the domestic violence from the

psychological this and actually breaking

down to fundamentals of what was going

on me because between the ages of 19 and

25 I was mentally institutionalized bio

my parents and each journey and Road

Dogg had to eat our land back on out of

that here in family that I had to

understand myself not blind my body how

it works lose 50 kilos and really read

all those relationships to understand

what was going on over here and what I

will start off by saying is the first

thing is that base element of family

violence starts when you're not being

understood as you intend to be

understood because if we can't stop in a

heated discussion over a period of time

and crap resolving our relationships and

come back to an understanding of how

those people that we love an airline

intend to be understood not really

respecting them for who they are under

feelings and identity to that is our

role as family members in other people

places to share our life with them like

to admit questions those words to settle

to sure our life with them it's going to

get it and they are not wanting to get

it don't not wanting to shit have our

have a share our life it in and it

really is a hard thing for a lot of

people because a lot of people do have a

lot of family history or so the ego

driven stuff and people not listening to

lie other and you know by family is for

a lot of years up seemed like going to

Christmas or gold and dinner with the

herd of elephants it's not proper

fun in fact it's been downright daunting

in an anxiety building likeit's it's not

a nice experience and usually that's

what that's disintegrating of my cause

of purpose for being and my feeling

around what it means to be a part of a

family no because I like to mess with

what I've got friendships or

relationships that really get me

understand me and connect with me

emotionally regardless what I'm thinking

feeling doing acting us about or seen or

interpret a ting or creating my world as

like having people in my world too

lovely for my own unique expression of

my identity that whatever format that is

makes me feel connected in my world and

yet for a lot of years didn't have that

from any of our family and it was it was

really hard to do that was really

probably as a maid major like

understatement major fundamental of my

mental health issues because by not

being connected and being disconnected

from a famine also partly become

disconnected from myself and you know

like a big kind of my gender recently

has been understanding the fact that

okay my mother and father come to be

together because they really did have a

volatile relationship physically and

mentally the communication wasn't

clarified to a great deal and over a

large periods holiday become largely

misunderstood mr. Jensen for one another

so there's only ever going to be a small

effect for me my brother especially

because they work hard they worked on

hours may they be spatially stepped into

the upper middle class society I guess

to put it but forced their way into that

door and never stopped to the finer

points of life and never stopped to

effectively communicate and then it

stops removes further issues and really

enjoy and create the gratitude for what

they were creating their life and they

call it was the other way while creating

it like ego bashing one another and

physically bashing one another and this

is the kind of environment I had to grow

up in it and it wasn't

by any means bad environment which is

also producers or constructive to

long-term price so family violence

doesn't necessarily have to primarily

exist in the physical form of Benjamin's

of floggings in the excuse or

explanation or whatever the reasoning it

can also be in the simple format of what

breakdown of communication over time you

know like as a teenager I started to

bury myself in my room and hide from the

rest of family and if i look back that's

where my life's officially started its

were a lot of my weight issues were

fluctuating and self-image issues

starting on a lot of mine would you call

it fractured parts of myself started to

occur at that age and really separated

out until i was kind of lost myself into

the darkness of mental health and yet it

was only when i started to reviewed that

contact without understanding those

people in my world which better

basically had to go back to a parent my

parents to understand them to build

enough trusted and then to open up and

share themselves from their experience

with me which has helped me understand

what the fuck was going on for me and

it's lights not being a nice rate so

totally violence it's not as simple as

life and take that how you doin it's

also it's like being totally lost in the

cause of a vision of what your inner

having or being a part of a family for

it's not just like we follow the you

know that follow the the token holidays

and share our love of Christmas you and

break an easter egg at easter and share

one another's company you know every day

something is a chance to get to know two

people in my world a deeper level and

share my experience of life within you

know and if you if you're not getting

that buzz like energy and having that

support around you that helps you get

back to your own driver itself over a

longer period i'm like there's a good

chance there's some leverage agree of

family

disconnection and baylor is down there

violence going on in your in your fam

because you know we all want to dream

about the Epiphany of that beautiful

family singing of that nice little glass

window I haven't got champagne dinner

with the kids having a laugh and

discussion around the chandelier and the

little glass the big glass table with it

all the all the bells and whistles got

on and for me like I believe that's

possible for all that mr. Han I don't

care about what your financial situation

is I believed it was possible for every

single family and have that paradigm of

existence nodes it's not a far cry from

interacts just a matter of now keeping

stunned to step back and understand the

fundamentals of what family violence is

and how it break those barriers how to

break those gaps and self inches another

I want two main points are making this

video's with family violence is about

point isn't understanding and breaking

that stereotype of breaking that mold

isn't about pointing fingers either it's

about starting to understand that

concept to a lot of people who are in

those environments of doing it to one

another there is no right person is no

wrong because you know what's mom and

dad think was quite and mentor is quite

over another years I made for 21 years

and had miraculous mr. Walker destroyed

in the sterile man and it's been felled

for a number of years like which is an

understatement however the resolve it is

all this video which is the main point

that there is no right one person /

carrier target is we make choices in any

given moment how we perceive information

that comes into our world how somebody

gives us and shares their world with us

you know a large portion of mum and

dad's breakdown in relations because my

mother had to deal with race issues from

before she was known so therefore her

expression is a full lady in a sexual

being is limited based upon experiences

of what happened beforehand so for her

17 year old girl being with my father in

love and then married and pregnant at 19

did not fully other sins

what was going on in her world plus she

was revolting against your own having an

influence of a mother and mother-in-law

to top it off so she didn't really

understand the form availability of her

constructive expression in its fullest

fault because based upon her experiences

in the past and how she translated them

in a wealth and then they did my father

either to an extreme level so he didn't

have the communication me that the P or

opinions world to help him solve any

issues that would allow him to move

through his emotional states that are

more constructive level rather and

lashing out in many ways as many of the

laser did so they stayed together for 21

years and you know they did actually

love one another so there was no curse

the point finger at it ought to break

down that understanding of what happened

and why it happened to what was really

going on there if you get fundamental is

to move beyond it and to actually bring

things back to that connection you know

so that is the concept of what is family

violence because family violence comes

from a very real skill level and it can

be found out to the to the macro and

that's up to you just pointed what you

will accept in your world because will

only ever accept the level of love that

we see ourself apps run ye ever accept

the level of family connection that we

see our family work and so that is like

important to create result of

relationships it's all I it's important

to consistently look back and forth

through past experiences and share our

versions of those experiences in order

to either a resolve those issues or

share and reminisce for most times for

gratitude to build a longevity of fun

and prosperity in the future because

that's the point of Sharon's gratitude

around experience to come park if we

can't actually heal experience to the

front of past how are we supposed to

make gratitude for fun experiences for

the future

simple quantum physics mechanism that

that which expands out one way must

expand out to equal over the other way

you have an equal level of dysfunction

besides you must have a equal level of

expansion and other side okay where our

kids starts we go out and actually run

riot on the streets which is an extreme

version of 15 express but you know in a

relationship with somebody as well if

you expressly if you allow this level of

communications deficit you'll have this

level of communication overload as well

as a period of time and has many

outcomes the only way we'll ever really

step into an hour all truths of our

scented beans and being balanced and to

move forward with happiness joy and

prosperity is to realign those extreme

experiences ballots in that scene from

all perspectives and be able to move

towards what it is really wanting to

create because what i want to create my

world is different What's to what you

want to train it's different to what

your old man the mums bother your sister

now the Raggedy Ann down the street it's

different to what they all want to

create everyone should a different

perception about what it is they're

creating their world and so if we all

can step into our truce and

constructively communicate on a level

where we get to understand what we're

creating and begin to help on our on

that concept there's a whole new

paradigm of community a removable family

box through the understanding of family

violence that becomes possible for us

real quite simple really the issue is is

that within society we've accepted so

much complexity that we can't see the

simplicity for what I need

or what his family's all of us for you

what's going on in your world you know

without point a finger at anyone or

without going into deep dark emotional

pain what level are you being locked

because for a large portion of a lion so

I thought wasn't allowed myself to be

loved at all I just accepted that

because the only way I could express

myself so I thought fit because I had

sodium she was not like Miss judging me

and not even wanting to break through

anything I'm trying to into things like

Express in the way that I intended it to

be interpreted and that was frustrating

to me I was easier for me to bury my

head of sand and just be nobody in order

to be able to do what I wanted to do

rather than its breakthroughs various

and if you look at the old world by two

large degree some about Abaddon few some

way it is full and I learn a different

male-dominated working this is now a lot

landscaping every now and again and it's

just full of a lot of blokes talking

about women in destructive ways and I

just can't do that anymore like I've

crossed enough berries now i cant

existing that paradigm of environment

like at all I'd rather be broke that'd

be around those sort of people because

after what I've had to conquer and

results myself but there's no no until

ever talk about any woman like that ever

again it says so once you see the other

side of all this stuff is going on the

simplicity of it all the sides it's

fucking ironic met but every interaction

every relationship you have every

conversation you have around

understanding other people restage

altima tlie a thang like every component

that is the fundamentals of family

violence is realizing that sorry the

people you work with that they've we

hang around for consumers in your

physical founding spending time with in

your father's and

even applies to people that you

acknowledge in the street all become

part of the fundamentals of your own

resolution of your family violence need

to apply a liberal family dynamics that

elevate into a gratitude of family love

just anyway I hope see on the next next

year because this whole fundamentals of

family dynamics is a concept that I've

really got a lot of inflation share and

the experiences I've had in life so we

hope you've enjoyed this clip it into my

video series on family dynamics this is

a short video on what is family violence

five now