Waching daily Jan 7 2017

Wow

hey guys happy New Year to everybody and

you guys had a great christmas there's a

couple of things I want to talk to you

guys about like what has been going on

in my life you know you guys have been

part of my life for a long long time and

I felt like I left you guys out in the

dark but I was going through a dark time

in my life like this video down into

guys let you guys know what I was going

through and you guys can understand like

really what I've been going through and

I hope you guys can relate to it and

know that it does get better is to 2017

cheers guys

alright so when i started youtube you

know I really wanted to grow and become

a youtuber and just really inspire

people that's all I want to be here was

inspire people with my one story that i

had this wonderful to know that it does

get better and people pick on you and

bullet you makes you stronger

with that being said though I just got

into a really dark time I was really

really getting really depressed with

anxiety i didn't understand it i was

really confused and it got worse and

worse and worse as the years went on I

suffered with anxiety for about five

years and I got to the point that it

turned into the rapture ball and I

wasn't leaving my house I wasn't going

anywhere i wasn't doing anything I don't

want to talk to nobody i never want to

date anybody it was terrible when I got

into a relationship with people they

would suffer my relationship down to the

core where our relationship would be

over because you know I didn't know what

was happening I didn't want one day I

don't want to leave the house and I felt

very you know not there and want to do

anything and I was depressed

well this year in 2016 it really did

take a turn it did it took a really big

turn

I would just laying bad and think I'm a

loser i would look at myself think I'm

very ugly and I wasn't confident anymore

it's a lot out of me and it may be just

completely quit everything i have one

that has never quite something can say

like I want you as a picture you know

going into one of that trying to go out

in public ok and seeing your computer

breathe and your heart beating so fast

and you freaking out and you not feeling

normal

that's how i felt and it was a confusing

thing in a very depressing thing because

no one understood it but myself what I

was feeling like you're fine you're fine

like no I'm not you know and it just got

to the point that I couldn't do anymore

so I schedule a doctor's appointment

with my doctor and I just wanted to

explain them like how I was feeling what

was going on and this is where the video

turns into something so amazing i was

against medication i was against anxiety

medication I don't think you need pills

to feel good but that has changed i have

one on this thing and my doctor

prescribed me 50 milligrams now I'm

really crazy when it comes to like drug

I get really scared i even called my

friend what can I teach you back girls

and I gonna be okay like i don't i'm not

like that kind of tight like I don't

like drugs that don't get away from me

and I don't like it it's not cute so I

when I first got the pill I took 25

milligrams during the day and it was in

saying you guys like it was the greatest

time of my life and the worst enemy

because I was so nervous about taking

this medication and when i took it a

couple hours later I started getting

like this nausea and this and just not

feeling good and sweaty palms and just

wasn't really great i didn't like it so

I was like what is going on with this so

my friend recommended to take it at

night so when you go at night your

symptoms and out while you're sleeping

and it has changed my life forever

I was taking 25 milligrams for quite

some time and now i'm up to 50

milligrams because i wanted to increase

it to see if there's any change and

there is a huge change

I feel like a whole new person i have

loved life again i am so positive

in 2017 i want to take this journey with

you guys this time and show you that you

know i'm back and i want to give you

videos every week and I want to share

you know my life with you guys again and

i want to be able to be a part of it

could I missed you all so much like

honestly like I think about you guys on

a daily basis you guys have really saved

my life and I didn't feel like you know

I gave you guys a great and like

explanation why laughs I just last you

know but I think you have to take some

time for yourself and when you're ready

would always come back to something and

I think I'm ready and I know i am i'm

really excited to start this journey

with you guys and just really give it to

you guys like how I've always wanted to

you know I've always dreamed about

having a youtube channel and having all

of you guys love and support

I've been missing it a past couple of

weeks and things like that and I'm just

really excited

that's how serious this issue was in my

life i just bought a really negative

things that I never was happy and it was

a really weird dark place and I had to

really think about my life I thought

maybe it could be just having a negative

attitude so I started working out and

going to the gym and that was a big

change for me is crazy this is the

transformation that has already happened

in my life you know I have gained so

much weight over the past couple of

months

yeah I couldn't be any happier I'm

actually look at 134 now and this is a

picture of me when I was very very

skinny I was like a hundred and

something and just going to the gym and

building up this body has been a dream

of mine and I cannot wait to continue my

journey so that's what i've been doing

also been changing my diet as well I've

been eating a lot of like chicken and

steak and fish and sushi and drinking a

lot of water

I've been trying to like you know do

like a glass of water a day and things

like that so I just been really focusing

on my health and just staying healthy in

2017 anxiety that's so extreme to the

point that you know I wouldn't think

about suicide but I feel like my life

would be better if i was just not hear

you

Adam thing it wasn't like I was thinking

about it but it was like that's what i

was thinking because I just didn't like

how I felt you know I was really shaky

and it was really really scary like it

wasn't you know I didn't know what was

going on I I just panicked and I'm go

into a panic and I feel like I can

breathe don't have to leave the

situation and I would have a great time

before like back in the day I don't have

to leave it and be the worst thing ever

like I went to justin bieber in chicago

and it was doing like a album release

party had and i was there and like I had

a panic attack and i had to leave i

literally walking the whole because I'm

head again that's not right

like I want to have fun to be able to

see things and stuff like that so I

definitely have to get that taken care

of because it was not good you guys so

yeah I definitely did that

I just feel so great now and I just

think it's time for me to come back 12

you youtube and the internet and you

know take it over like I always do

girl you know I just think it's time for

me to come back and I missed you guys so

much like it's hard to like say this

because that you guys really are a huge

part of my life and how good I feel

lately there's still a part of me

missing and it's you

so I wanna try this again and really

make you guys proud of me and I give you

guys some material and things like that

and I just really want to have a really

great year with you guys and grow and

build our fandom and our family and our

friends and just really have a great

year this year I want to stay positive

realize and I know that I've gone

through what I've gone through and I

know there's people out there that are

going through it and i would love and be

honored to be a part of it with you and

help you get through it like i got

myself through it and I just you know I

love taking my things that have gone

through in my own life and share with

you guys can relate to it and maybe it

can help you overcome it because it's

not a pleasant thing is a very very

serious issues that we deal with and

and I've learned that it's only you and

your doctor that can only fix it

I'm me and I can also give you some

advice and things along those lines and

but yeah it's you know I'm really

excited to start this journey with you

guys and let's start 2017 with a bang

I love you all so much and thank you for

all your love and your support guys and

don't forget to follow on my social

media right there my snapchat available

Bryan Brie's my Instagram is be buried

as long with my Twitter that's what's

happening to you guys I'm so excited to

be back definitely in the comment

section what you guys want to see from

me again and like I always say no my

videos and until next time do not let me

breathe through all the way and again

you guys please be kind to one another

and don't forget to subscribe

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Pokemon Sun and Moon Theory: Why Are Salazzle Only Female? - Duration: 4:44.

Salandit, The Toxic Lizard Pokemon.

Once this pokemon was first introduced to us back in July everybody and their mother

praised this pokemon and proclaimed that it would be on their team.

And all of us had high hopes for Salandit's evolution and sure enough gamefreak delivered

with this amazingly designed beast of a pokemon, Salazzle.

But a question that has recently surfaced around the salandit line is why are Salazzle

only female?

I mean even the pokedex itself doesn't know.

If you take a look at the pokemon Sun dex entry it states, "For some reason only females

have been found."

Well Ladies and Gents Today I have a Scientific theory as to why Salazzle are only females.

Just remember that this is indeed a theory and not a fact so if this video turns out

to be false then hey I tried.

If you guys enjoy the video be sure to leave a like subscribe and share this video with

a friend and with that being said let's get started.

Now to figure out why Salazzle are only female we are going to have to take a look at what

the pokemon are actually based on.

And it's made pretty clear that salandit and salazzle are based on the salamander, but

in terms of the design Salandit also draws a lot of inspiration from the Japanese Fire

Belly Newt as you can see here.

But whats important here is that we know that the salandit line are in the reptilian family.

In many reptilian species we can see polygamous relationships.

What this basically means is that one individual would get it on with more than one partner.

Most interestingly, this is usually split up by genders.

For example, in the Salazzle line, the females will have multiple mates - a reverse harem

as the pokedex explains.

The dex also explains that the method salazzle's use to find mates is something it shares strongly

with Salamanders; which are another of the inspirations behind this pokemon.

These reptiles are known for using pharamones to attract multiple mates… seriously though,

i have a hard enough time getting one girl at a time; i gotta look into this stuff.

Anyways, aside from sexual practices and pokedex entries, we are mainly looking into why it

is that ONLY the females evolve.

Well, this is basically the pokemon equivalent of our world's sexual dimorphism.

Those fancy words basically mean that the genders of a species have different defining

traits.

There are tons of animals and pokemon alike that have simliar practices; For example we

have angler fish, Pikachu (tails), Lions (pyroars), and a bunch more.

Typically, but not always, in species that have sexual dimorphism inbeded in them the

males are larger, more colourful, and have more exaggerated features (horns, larger feathers,

etc) so it is kind of cool to see pokemon look at a species dominated by females here.

That being said, having larger females can have a LOT of advantages for a species.

Larger females are typically favored by competitive males, especially in polygamous speices...liiiiiike

Salandit.

Larger females also tend to offer an advantage in fertility as well.

Females are larger in many species of insects, spiders, fish, reptiles, owls, birds of prey

and certain mammals like the spotted hyena, and baleen whales such as blue whale.

In many of these species the females also are more attracted to smaller males; which

may be a cause and explanation as to why male salandits don't evolve.

Of course all of this could be just an over complicated explanation but if this is correct,

it's crazy to think that this much science and intelligence goes into a children's

video game.

GameFreak I commend you, you are one of the greatest of all time

Thank you guys so much for watching if you guys enjoy the video, be sure to leave a like

and let me know in the comment section below.

If you havent already subscribe to the channel to become an Eryibro today!

I know this was a bit of a short theory but I promise you guys more frequent uploads be

coming back to the channel very soon.

But until then why not check out some of my other sun and moon videos the links to them

will appear on screen and

with that being said I will see you guys next time.

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Thanks for watching ; )

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File Folder Junk Journals - Flip Through My Journal - Duration: 7:14.

(upbeat music)

Hi everyone! It's Melissa.

Happy New Year,

and welcome back to Quiet Little Crush!

Today I'm going to do flip through of a couple

of journals that I made.

They are pretty much the same.

There's a few little differences, but for the most part,

they're the same, and they're not quite finished.

I'll show you a couple little things

that still need to be done.

As you can see here on the side,

they are both stitched, and I just wrapped

a piece of twine around the outside

to keep it closed.

I may go back and add some other kind of closure

but for now, this is good enough.

On the front of this one I glued down a map,

and if you look closely on the spine here

it's not quite glued down.

There's another piece that I glued down along the back,

and I'll go back and finish that.

I added some random papers

and then went through and added little tuck spots.

This one has a postcard .

A lot of the papers are tea dyed or coffee dyed.

Here I have another tuck spot with a tag

that I just stamped with some back ink.

And I put another stamp here on this page,

and used some distressed ink.

These are some square images that are from...

Tim Holtz.

Here's another map, and on this page I just added

this little card.

There's a lot of space in here for journaling

which is what I wanted.

Here is another tuck spot with some tags.

You can see on the edges

I distressed them with some distressed ink.

This is some washi tape samples,

and here I made an envelope

because there was a little bit of a gap

between the two signatures,

and I needed to fill that up,

so I put one of these in each of them.

This one is an envelope, and it flips up.

I washi taped it together, and inside

I stuck a few more little goodies to journal on.

Here's a little envelope I created as well,

and glued it down, and then I stuck another tag inside.

I love this graph paper.

An there's another little pocket there

with some more cards.

There's more embellishments on the other one.

This one I kept pretty blank.

This is one of my favorite things.

I was collecting some of the extra papers,

and gathering them all up,

and I realized that I could make them into a little book,

so I folded them in half and then just stapled it,

and I put a little stamp on the front.

And then in the back

there's another pocket with some more tags.

Here's the second one.

And again, I just wrapped the twine around

to keep it closed.

And on the inside of this one,

there's an image of a house, which I really liked.

And this, instead of a tuck spot,

it has a little flap that you can open up.

Here's some more of those square cards that I put in...

And another envelope that flips up.

This one is open on both sides.

I meant for this to be another tuck spot,

(laughing) but I accidentally glued it down,

so it's just a little piece of paper that flips up,

and you can write something in there.

There's another tuck spot.

I love the image of that woman on the front.

I have a couple little card inside.

And another postcard.

This is one of the tags that I made

using a napkin.

And a tiny little tuck spot at the top

that I added a tag to.

And as I said, I'm not quite finished.

I'm going to cut this off here,

and then I'll add it back in.

And here's the envelope that I created for this one,

and it's using the same piece of paper.

As you can see it's wide enough

that you can store some things in.

And the papers here are tea dyed,

and coffee dyed as well

There's some more tags...

And graph paper.

And then this is a little piece of paper

that's tri-folded, and it opens up,

and you can write something in there.

And another tag that I added a stamp to.

A little tuck spot with a ticket.

And then this is a little booklet

that I made out of those tiny square pieces of paper.

I just washi taped them together...

And I paper clipped it in.

And on the back there's another little pocket

with some tags.

So that is it.

Those are the two journals that I made.

These are both going to be gifts,

and I think I'm going to add some sticker

to the front of them before I give them away.

But, I hope you enjoyed watching.

I'll put links to everything I used down below,

and I will talk to you in my next video.

Bye guys!

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[ENG SUB][INX Diary] 161117 Sangho - Duration: 3:01.

FDMSKPOP

Hello, I'm Sangho

yes

Its been about 4 days since we got back

for what i've done first off,

I'm learning hirigana

practicing for japanese fans

I'm working hard to be able to talk to the fans

I got 100%

Amazing right!

<b><i>I really got 100% *claps*</b></i>

My skin is in a bit of a bad condition

so I applied a bit of BB

today the style is a bit good but it's not usually this good

today I was up bit early, I couldn't really sleep

so I took a morning shower an early morning shower

It was really refreshing, normally we have Taiwan(?) schedule and Japan schedule so we get our make up done everyday

Now that were back in Korea, were back to practicing

It's been a while since I've dressed up nicely

My hair is done too with spray(hairspray?)

ah that when we did our makeup in Japan it looked nice so when I had no make up I thought I looked a bit weird

Everyone Sangho caught the celebrity disease!

lel

I didn't

So for everyone I wanted to look my best So I did my hair and everything

Show the camera some aygeyo!

3-2-1

yes. Hello, I'm INX Sangho

Bye. Im going to Practice , Ok Bye~

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