This is the first video that is going to
be a part of my Shi Speaks series. This is
the part of my channel that is dedicated
to sharing more of myself and more of my story.
I'm just really excited to be able to
share more with you guys. I really hope
that you guys are blessed
Hey guys it's Shina from Shi Walks With God
dedicated to living life on purpose
with purpose. if you want to hear more
about my story then just keep watching
We live in a world that doesn't like
waiting. the idea of waiting in a line
just about drives us crazy
we have internet that is super fast god
forbid that our internet takes five
seconds to load you want to throw our
phone against the wall if our Wi-Fi is
down but needless to say we're not
exactly the most patient people and
we're not really all that into waiting.
so given all of that how do we live in a
world built on immediate gratification
if you're in the weight of all waits.
waiting to have sex until you're married
i personally know the weight of this
wait because i am a virgin!
that's so weird to say I'm going to be
completely honest not going into too
much specific detail because I want to
respect people's privacy there in things
that i would share in like a small group
or that i do share with people
one-on-one i am the current series here
that i do want to share this with you
guys because I feel like it's super
important
so a little bit about my story i
actually was really young when i made
this decision to we my dad had this
conversation with me around eight or
nine years old were Catholic at the time
and so he's really a proposed to me how
important it is for a woman to wait
until she's married while those were
really great principles that was kind of
where I was left
I just knew that that was important and
it mattered to me and at that age in my
life i decided to make that commitment
to the Lord issue with that was that I
was given a really great goal but i
wasn't really given the tools to be able
to kind of maneuver all of the things
and all of life that would happen after
that
yeah so you know like a lot of us i need
different mistakes i ended up a
relationship that i really had no
business being in you know I had
different ideas of what love looks like
back then and I did you get caught up in
lustful moments moments of weekend you
know you can wait have sex until you're
married but there are other ways to send
that other ways to love fighting that
battle at that time was really difficult
i had a lord of the time but not like a
you know after i got saved and accepted
christ i started to eventually be i
remember i really wanted to get married
it was always kind of this thing for me
and my family I guess everybody kind of
always expected that I would be the one
to get married early and I have a good
dream wedding and everything when I was
younger and I made this decision to live
my life this way I never really
considered the length of time I think
you kind of have this idea in your head
of what that's going to look like
everybody I think kind of assumes just
going to work out in a certain amount of
time to say anything when you're like 19
early twenties is a proud thing and at
that time I didn't mind being the kind
of spokesperson for purity or you know
waiting to have sex so you married just
saying that people applaud you for it he
tell you how awesome it is and people
talk about it you want to tell people
more about it i remember around 21 or 22
thinking to myself okay Lauren what's
the visual and made this commitment i
had waited this long you know the older
I got I realized that there were less
and less people who looks like me even
in the church
it's just really hard you know you look
around and you don't see a lot of people
like you and who are really fighting the
good fight
I sit around like you know 20
you 324 and I just I really thought like
I was about i'm going to get married
when that didn't happen and my
relationship didn't work out i was just
really frustrated you know i had spent
three years in this relationship and I
was like watered what now I ended up in
a place that I never expected to be
which was that I'm still a virgin
it wasn't even completely about like oh
I'm less being so much now it was more
about the fact that I was kind of
frustrated with God because in my mind I
just had this idea that you know my life
was going to start once that happened
whether the world convinces you of the
dream that i was kinda sold remember
thinking and I wrote this down you know
the glory I'm 24 years old and I'm still
doing the silver version and it's so
weird to pay
I just didn't want it anymore i had
talked about it and dr. out and talk
about it i thought that i thought that i
could outrun it
you know i don't know if you guys know
what that's like when God so obviously
call of you to something and you like no
I don't want that rapunzel and I don't
want it lord I was just so motivated so
long to just get married you know I
hours like 24 and I just thought okay
well have been get married then i can
just not have this responsibility
anymore its kind of avoided the guiding
deeds and i thought that i was in the
clear somebody else's responsibility
milk couple months went by and it didn't
work out and I was really really
devastated but I had done that to myself
I put myself in that situation and it
wasn't what God wanted for me again this
was me I'm like one of 25 years old and
I'm still sitting here and I'm still
version it didn't work so i just was so
stuck on
not being a certain age and still doing
that I really was frustrated about the
fact that my life just wasn't panning
out the way that I thought it should
have or would have but still wanted to
get married i ended up getting engaged
again sometime later I remember feeling
this heavy heavy weight on the wards
like I still want you to talk about this
and I still want you to hear about this
back at that time I knew what he had
envisioned for me it really was dead i
didn't want to be heat just trying to
get out of it
you know I knew the Lord was really
calling me to be more vocal about it and
then I just kind of thought well it's
too late now i think i may be married
and then i have to do this anymore my
decadent engagement didn't work out and
obviously that was very difficult at the
time I just knew that time that all
right Lauren obviously you want me to be
single the older than I got the left
that I would talk about it because it's
just kind of weird you know people don't
really expect you to belittle and still
be a virgin and you don't expect that
you would have gotten stopped talking to
me about it and I struggled for a while
because I didn't want to accept that
this was something that the Lord wanted
for me i finally got to the point where
I let it go said ok alert
I've tried to my way and
it doesn't work what finally brought me
to place where I really have embraced it
and I don't feel embarrassed anymore or
kind of a shame because like you know
saying the v-word at my age or any age
i'm more than happy
example 2 e whatever support that
anybody needs so here it is
and here i am I want to help encourage
and support anybody out there who is you
know fighting the good fight and who is
leading anybody can we be was reading
and I ended up having sites and is now
living selling it again and its leading
whatever your situation is and maybe
before you do before who already has
dogs and now you want two weeks and Mary
does awesome to do we can always just
rededicate ourselves to board and to
this promise it's never too late for you
please know that God can heal and
restore any situation I was also really
really encouraged i want to give a shout
out to a Christian youtuber / channel is
love Shar i'll link it below for you
guys
she's awesome I thought her video about
being a virgin and she was just so bold
and like so open i just wanted to thank
you for that video definitely check out
her channel and check out her video
you're not alone ahead of her out there
and still virgin that's what he wanted
to me right now guys please let me know
if you have any questions for me or I
will put my email below or you can just
leave comments below if there's anything
private that you want to share with me
or questions you have and feel free to
email me okay guys hope you were really
blessed by this i will see you guys next
time god bless you
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