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Pelosi Suffers Mental Breakdown On Live TV, Makes Absolute Fool Of Herself

What happened over the weekend as House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi (D-CA) sat down with ABC's

Jonathan Karl is further ammunition for those who believe the 77-year-old Congresswoman

is going senile.

After suffering an embarrassing mental breakdown on live television, she proceeded to make

an absolute fool out of herself

"Democrats retake the House," Karl said during Sunday's episode of This Week.

"How does a Democratic House, you as a Democratic Speaker, work with this president?

You've been the resistance, you look a lot like the party of 'No' right now…"

"I see everything as an opportunity.

And I've never seen so much willingness to help win.

And winning means winning for the American people, that either we win or whoever wins

understands the priorities of the American people," said Pelosi.

"And they are not with President Bush."

Instantly realizing her mistake, she threw her head back, placed her hand over her heart,

and theatrically said, "I'm so sorry, President Bush.

I never thought I would pray for the day that you were president again."

Trying her best to salvage a response to Karl's question after the embarrassing flub, Pelosi

continued, "And so you asked the question, 'How would I work with a Republican president?'

The way we worked with President Bush.

We got a great deal accomplished."

"Biggest energy bill in the history of our country, a tax bill that helped low-income

working families that we wanted and we wanted to be big, and we found our common ground,"

she added.

"The list goes on and on."

However, Pelosi didn't always feel this way.

In 2008, however, Pelosi had offered a different assessment of former President George W. Bush.

"God bless him, bless his heart, President of the United States — a total failure,

losing all credibility with the American people on the economy, on the war, on energy, you

name the subject," she said.

[Source: Western Journalism]

During a similar moment of confusion in February, Pelosi said in an interview, "While it's

only been a couple of weeks since the inauguration, we've seen nothing that I can work with

President Bush on."

She didn't even bother correcting herself that time.

You'd think that with the near constant media interviews Pelosi performs she wold

have honed her craft a bit better by now.

At the very least, she should be more than familiar with the fact that Donald Trump is

our president.

Perhaps if that simple concept is so difficult for her to grasp, she ought to think about

retiring, and soon.

Although she's trying to paint herself as the left's savior and only hope, she's

quickly becoming nothing more than the poster child for term limits.

For more infomation >> Pelosi Suffers Mental Breakdown On Live TV, Makes Absolute Fool Of Herself - Duration: 3:41.

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How To Become a Sex Toy Reviewer (Q&A #6) - Duration: 6:26.

When people ask me what I do, I often joke that I masturbate for a living.

This is, of course, a huge oversimplification.

But as a person whose job title includes the words "sex toy reviewer," it is kind of true.

Because my job is so unusual, I tend to get a lot of questions about it, both from people

who watch my videos and read my blog and from people I meet in my day-to-day life.

So today I thought I'd answer some of those frequently asked questions and demystify the

life of a sex toy reviewer.

#1. How did you get into reviewing sex toys?

So I got into reviewing in a sort of weird, lucky way that I'm not sure is really replicable

these days, unfortunately.

In 2015 I decided that I wanted to start a sex ed YouTube channel that talked about a variety

of subjects, but specifically sex toys and sex toy safety since that was something I

was really interested in and something that other sex ed YouTubers at the time weren't

really talking about.

I had been reading sex toy review blogs like Hey Epiphora and DangerousLilly for years

and knew in the back of my mind that that was something I kind of wanted to do someday,

but I wasn't making any effort to pursue it at that point.

A few months into all of this, I put up a blog post on some of the best sex toys under

$30.

And lo and behold, one of the brands heavily featured in that post, Tantus, reached out

and asked if I wanted to review some of their toys.

I was really surprised.

I had never reviewed anything before, and I was pretty nervous about the prospect, but

I said yes.

And it was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

Fast forward another six months or so.

By then I had reviewed a few Tantus toys and a LELO vibrator that a lovely subscriber sent

me a gift card to buy, and I'd posted maybe 20 or so educational videos and blog posts.

It was the month that Kinkly hosted their annual Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes contest--

and in a strange turn of events that I still don't entirely understand, I came in

at number 10, ahead of so many reviewers and educators that I respect like crazy.

I also came in at number 1 in the New Sex Bloggers category and number 4 in the Sex

Toy Reviewers category.

After that, brands like Lovehoney started reaching out to me, and as I reviewed more

and more I started getting contacted by more brands and developed the confidence to start

reaching out to brands that I was interested in.

It all just snowballed in a really bizarre way, and I'm very grateful.

Though I don't know how useful this story actually is to people trying to get into

reviewing in 2017, so I'm going to answer a few more questions and hopefully give some

real advice.

#2. How do you get companies to send you free sex toys?

First of all, I want to say that companies do not generally send me free sex toys.

Very occasionally a company will send me a toy with no strings attached, and those I

consider free.

But the vast majority of toys I'm sent are part of an explicitly agreed upon exchange.

They send me the toy, and in return I post a review of it.

Reviewing can take a lot of time and effort -- I mean, it's work, it's my job -- so I don't

really consider products I get for review "free."

Now, if you're an aspiring reviewer trying to figure out how to get sex toys sent to

you for review, it can help to think about WHY companies send out products for review

in the first place.

And there are two primary reasons they do this.

One is just to get feedback on the product.

Reviewers' insight can be incredibly valuable to companies because we've generally tried

more sex toys than the average person and therefore have a pretty nuanced perspective.

The second reason is marketing.

We have an audience, and they want to get their brand in front of those eyeballs.

So to get companies to send you toys, you want to be able to show them both of those

things -- quality reviews and an audience.

Start getting content up on your channel or blog and reviewing things that you already own.

You want to make yourself look as established as possible when you start reaching out to

companies.

Interact with the sex toy reviewer community on social media and make friends.

This will help to both build your audience and create a support group of people who can

give you advice on everything from working with companies to banishing self-doubt to

filing taxes as a sex toy reviewer.

Which brings me to...

#3. How do you make money as a sex toy reviewer?

This is a question I tend to get asked by people in my offline life, and then when I

mention that I do most of my reviews on YouTube they kind of nod as though that explains it.

It doesn't.

At this point in time, I have never made a cent from YouTube or Google.

People like to imagine that YouTubers are rolling in cash, but that's not usually the

case, and especially not for people making videos that have anything to do with sex.

Sex is not "advertiser-friendly."

Most of my toy reviews and some of my educational videos are flagged as 18+ and don't have ads

running on them at all, and the videos that aren't age restricted tend to get the

lowest paying ads possible.

After two-and-a-half years and hundreds of thousands of views on my YouTube channel,

I am still nowhere near the $100 AdSense payout threshold.

And that sucks, but it's just how it is.

So I have to make my money in other ways.

One of my main sources of income is through affiliate programs.

These are basically sales commission programs, and the sex toy industry has some great ones.

If you click a link to a toy or sex shop in my video descriptions or on my blog or social media

and you buy something, I'll usually get a about 10-30% of the retail price of whatever

you purchased (depending on the specific shop and its program).

I'm going to link a page on my website down in the description that has links and information

on all of the affiliate programs I'm part of.

And I have a policy that I won't accept a product for review if it's not available through

somewhere with an affiliate program.

Other reviewers I know sometimes just charge the companies for reviews in those situations.

That's not something I'm personally comfortable doing just because I don't feel like I could

be unbiased if I'm being paid to review something, but others feel differently and it works for them.

I'll also do the occasional sponsored video, where a company will pay me to create content

that mentions their brand.

I usually try to keep it to the same sort of educational content that I would be making

anyway, such as my Sex Toys + Disability Guide or my 5 Sex Toy Shopping Mistakes video.

Finally, if you're running a blog, you can always host advertisers there in the form

of banners and links in your sidebar or elsewhere on your site.

For more information on becoming a sex toy reviewer, I'm going to give you three links:

Hey Epiphora's Beginner's Guide to Sex Toy Reviewing and Blogging, her 15 Rules For Writing

a Sex Toy Review That Doesn't Royally Suck, and her online sex blogging class, which I

haven't taken but I've heard great things about.

If you've got any other questions about reviewing toys, leave them down in the comments!

Thanks for watching, and I'll see you next time!

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Sean Spicer Praises Kim Jong-un For Leading North Korea "Forward" - Duration: 4:14.

During Monday's White House press briefing, Sean Spicer was asked by a reporter from ABC

about Donald Trump's saying that he would be willing to meet with North Korean dictator

Kim Jong-un, to which Sean Spicer went in this bizarre, rambling defense of Trump's

decision, saying that, "Look, Kim Jong-un led the country of North Korea forward at

a very young age.

He has accomplished a lot for a man so young, and he is leading this country, so yes, it

would make sense for Donald Trump to meet with him."

Now, hold up there, Spicey.

There's a lot of things to talk about here.

First of all, Kim Jong-un is a dictator.

He is making 99% of the population of North Korea, those that live outside of Pyongyang,

live in absolute hell.

These people have no access to internet, most of the time no access to electricity, no access

to basic necessities of life.

Any dissent is punished severely.

People get disappeared from their homes every single day, never to be seen again, and Sean

Spicer says that, "Yeah, Donald Trump would meet with this guy."

Now, could you imagine what would happen if Barack Obama came out and said, "I'd like

to meet with Kim Jong-un"?

The Republicans would have had a field day.

They would have been running specials all day on Fox News telling us how horrible the

situation is in North Korea, and why we need to go in there with bombs instead of diplomatic

presence, I guess.

Now, I'm not saying we need to bomb them.

I'm not saying we need to attack them or invade them, but I am saying there is no good that

will come out of a meeting between Donald Trump and Kim Jong-un. Kim Jong-un needs to

be removed from power, and the power of North Korea needs to be given back to the people

who are living in these dismal conditions under a brutal dictator, and for Spicer to

suggest that it's perfectly natural for Trump to want to meet with him, but furthermore,

that this kid has led this country forward?

I have to ask, in what regard?

How have they gone forward?

People in that country are terrified to say any negative thing not just about Jong-un,

but Kim Jong-il, any leader that North Korea has ever had.

They worship these people, or at least are forced to worship these people, as if they

are Jesus and Santa Claus rolled into one.

That's not normal.

That's not acceptable, and that is not behavior that the United States needs to turn a blind

eye to and say, "Yeah, we'll meet up.

Maybe we'll have a coffee."

Sean Spicer, I am sorry, he is the dumbest person in the Trump administration, and that

is saying a lot, because don't forget, this is an administration that includes people

like Kellyanne Conway and, of course, Donald Trump himself.

But Sean Spicer has no idea what he's doing, and every day he goes out there, he is just

creating more problems for Donald Trump to deal with.

Now, I don't feel bad for Donald Trump.

He absolutely deserves this, but at some point, Sean Spicer is going to have a mental breakdown

on air and will have to be carted out of that room on a gurney.

So Sean, for your own sake, for the sake of everybody in this country, please step down

and let somebody who has a little bit more poise, a little bit more tact, take over for

you, because you are causing so much damage, and the worst part?

I don't even think you realize it.

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Ovejas Eléctricas - Homenaje a The Wall de Pink Floyd - Duration: 7:31.

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Роман Кармазин: ЭРА КЛИЧКО ЗАКОНЧИЛАСЬ! (02.05.2017) - Duration: 1:24.

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Book Secret Doomsday plan to save Washington cost taxpayers $2B a year - Duration: 3:56.

Book Secret Doomsday plan to save Washington cost taxpayers $2B a year

by Paul Bedard

President Bill Clinton stands with top aides George Stephanopoulos and Press Secretary

Dee Dee Myers in 1993.

Stephanopoulos but not Myers was given a pass to safety in the event of a nuclear attack,

according to a new book.

(AP Photo/J. Scott Applewhite) President Bill Clinton stands with top aides

George Stephanopoulos and Press Secretary Dee Dee Myers in 1993.

Stephanopoulos but not Myers was given a pass to safety in the event of a nuclear attack,

according to a new book.

Kurtz: Media 'spectacularly wrong' on Trump, networks 'cross the line'

Weekly Trump Report Card: Missteps hobble Trump in first 100 days

Left turns guns on Jared Kushner, want security clearance suspended

Zombies: $310 billion spent on expired programs, VA, State dominate

Mainstream Scream: On CNN, Gergen hits 'deeply disturbing' Trump speech

Top officials in Washington, including congressional leaders, White House big shots and Supreme

Court justices, aren't really sweating over reports of imminent attacks from North Korea

or Iran.

The reason: They've got an escape plan, a prepper network that costs taxpayers $2 billion

a year for secret jets, caves and even electric and communications lifelines, according to

an in-depth review of official Washington's doomsday blueprint.

It is, according to the new book "Raven Rock" from journalist and historian Garrett M. Graff,

"The story of the U.S. government's secret plan to save itself � while the rest of

us die."

Graff reveals new details about the long-standing "Continuity of Government" program that was

pushed into hyper gear after 9/11 and is currently at full alert.

Once a network of cozy caves and mountain tops where officials fled during the 9/11

attacks, it is now a much more expansive and sophisticated prepper backup.

The book is named for Site R adjacent to Camp David, that has grown since 9/11 into a sprawling

69 building facility and bunker to house officials and military in a nuclear attack.

He reveals details of a secret Air Force fleet to whisk the president away to safety and

gives the location of a runway in picturesque Upperville, Va., for those jets to land and

deliver officials to the nearby Mt. Weather FEMA bunker.

But apparently not everybody inside Washington's top offices.

From the book:

When Aaron Sorkin was researching what would become "The American President" and "The West

Wing," Clinton aide George Stephanopoulos pulled out of his wallet what the Hollywood

director first thought was a bus pass � it was actually a little card explaining how

Stephanopoulos would be evacuated in case of a nuclear event.

Sorkin incorporated that card into a latter West Wing episode, where character Josh Lyman

received such a card from the national security council and felt guilt because his co-workers

wouldn't also be saved.

While shooting the scene, set consultant Dee Dee Myers, the former press secretary to Bill

Clinton, pulled Sorkin aside to tell him that the scene was unrealistic because those cards

didn't actually exist.

Sorkin was shocked: Even as a top aide, she'd never realized that her co-workers had exactly

those cards � and she never did.

For more infomation >> Book Secret Doomsday plan to save Washington cost taxpayers $2B a year - Duration: 3:56.

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Bitesize Business English #24: Confirm - Duration: 2:13.

confirm confirm and confirmation

confirmation to confirm something is to

make something certain usually an

arrangement or a meeting this can be

done via writing an email or over the

phone so if we have arranged a meeting a

few weeks ago the day before our meeting

I might phone you to confirm that the

meeting is still happening to make

certain that the meeting is still

happening if you make a reservation over

the phone you may be told that they will

confirm your reservation via email they

will send you the reservation details

over email to make certain that it's

booked so confirmation is the noun the

email or the phone call which makes

certain that something is happening and

confirm is the act of providing

confirmation so when I confirm I provide

confirmation confirm can also mean to

prove that something is true for example

the delicious smell of food coming from

the kitchen confirmed that someone was

cooking or the police confirmed there

had been an incident on Friday night so

there you have it confirm and

confirmation don't forget this is one of

many bite-sized business English lessons

so do be sure to check out the rest of

them and if you enjoyed this then please

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good bye

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STARBUCKS UNICORN FRAPPUCCINO AT HOME | HOW TO MAKE | RECIPE | VEGAN | HEALTHY | DIY - Duration: 10:40.

- Hi guys. (upbeat music)

Hope you're having a great day.

My name's Morgan, and welcome to my channel.

Today, I wanted to show you how to make unicorn

frappucino at home.

I guess it's more of a unicorn smoothie,

because it's actually pretty healthy.

But, it'll look beautiful and taste even better

than that other frappucino

that you may or may have been able to get your hands on.

FYI, if you still really want a mythical frappucino

from Starbucks, apparently there's a dragon one

that you can get, which sounds pretty good.

It's like a green tea latte.

So, you could go get that.

But if you like this video, be sure to give it a thumbs up,

comment down below if you wanna see anything else like this,

and, of course, subscribe for more videos.

I do lots of stuff like this on my channel,

and I'd love to have you join the family.

Let me know what you wanna see.

Alright, let's get started, guys.

Okay, so out first step is going to be getting that

nice blue drizzle.

So, in order to get a blue drizzle

that doesn't use blue food coloring,

we're going to use Blue Magic.

So this is a sort of algae,

it's basically like liquid gold, I swear (chuckles).

It took me so long to find this,

and then I ended up going to a smoothie place near me

that I knew had Blue Magic as one of the ingredients

in their smoothies, and they gave me this much

for five bucks.

It's a pricey, pricey thing, so if wanted to use blue

food coloring, you totally good.

But I'm going to take a little bit of this

condensed coconut milk.

This is probably the least healthy part of this recipe,

but I think given that it's a small amount,

it's probably okay.

So I'm taking, this is probably about 1 and 1/2

to two tablespoons of condensed coconut milk.

And I'm just going to melt this a little bit,

soften it up in the microwave.

Okay, so this actually looks perfect.

It was in there for about 10 minutes,

and it is just the right consistency.

So this is now too solid, so I'm gonna move it away.

I actually thought I was gonna have to add some almond milk

to it, but it doesn't seem like I'm going to,

but I have it on hand just in case.

Okay, I'm now gonna go in and add in my Blue Magic.

You only need to add in a small amount at a time.

So this is probably about 1/2 a teaspoon, I would guess.

We're fine with that.

And this nice blue.

So now that we have that, I'm actually gonna grab

my Starbucks cup, 'cause we fancy,

and we gonna totally mimic it.

And just drizzle it along the side.

And I don't wanna get too overzealous with this,

'cause I feel like you wanna still be able to see

all the pretty colors.

Okay, so I just tossed the cup into the fridge

so that the side drizzle wouldn't fall down anymore

while we're making the smoothie part.

So for the smoothie, you're going to need a Magic Bullet

or a blender of some sort.

I'm using this Vega protein powder,

it's like a Tropical Tango flavor,

but it's got some mango in it so that's why I'm using it.

It's honestly not the best tasting protein powder

I've ever had, but it works because it doesn't turn it

green, 'cause it doesn't have any added greens to it.

And then a frozen banana.

So I'm gonna start off by tossing in this frozen banana,

then my almond milk.

This is just a plain, unsweetened almond milk.

(milk gushing)

Quite a bit of almond milk, I think that was about a cup,

because we wanna make sure that we have enough room

for all the additional fruits and stuff

we're gonna add in in a second as well.

Then, a scoop of this Vega powder.

(tapping)

Cool.

And then we're gonna blend it up.

(blender whirring)

Now that we have this all blended up,

I'm gonna separate it out into two separate cups.

But, now that I think of it, I actually only need one

because we're just gonna start with it in here.

So, I'm gonna set that aside,

and start off with our pink one.

Now, we're taking some strawberries here,

tip some in.

If you have a pureed dragon fruit, or some beet juice,

then that would work really, really well here.

I just don't have any of that on hand right now,

so that's why I'm using strawberries.

Plus, I feel like most people have strawberries around.

And then I'm adding in just a little bit more almond milk

to make sure that we don't end up with something

that's like a smoothie bowl.

If you do want a smoothie bowl,

then you don't need to add any more almond milk,

it'll probably be fine just as is.

(blender whirring)

Okay, so now that we have out strawberry part done,

and see, even this is pretty (chuckles),

pretty thick from what I was planning on doing.

But, okay.

And this is also my first time doing this,

did I mention that?

Probably not.

So we're gonna separate this one out now into here.

(groaning)

So graceful.

Yum.

Set this aside now.

And we're gonna move on to the blue part.

So I'm just gonna rinse this off a little bit

so that we don't end up having too, too much color

cross contamination.

Awesome.

Okay, so now I'm gonna pour this part into the smoothie.

And we're gonna add in some frozen berries.

Of course, if you used some blueberries,

just straight blueberries, it'd probably end up

being a little bit purple-ier,

but this is just what I have.

So, there's cherries in here, and blackberries,

so it'll probably end up being a little bit more red

than I would have liked.

Actually, let me,

this is gonna be a bit of a chore.

For you,

for you, unicorn smoothie, I'll do it.

Just picking out all of the blue stuff,

I don't wanna get any of those cherries in there

'cause I think the cherries will end up

making it really red.

Alright, that should be about enough,

because, where did my blue algae go?

There it is.

Now I'm gonna pout in the rest of my blue algae.

So in total, I'm using about 1 and 1/2 scoops

of the blue algae.

Okay, let's stir this up and see what happens,

'cause I don't know at this point.

And go.

(blender whirring)

'Kay, so apparently that wasn't recording,

but I basically just exploded everything

from here into my Magic Bullet.

So, there's not quite as much blue

as I would've wanted, but it's fine.

We'll make do.

We're going to assemble this,

and make it look like our unicorn smoothie.

We're just gonna spoon everything in

'cause I wanna be real sure that it works out.

So starting off with our pink.

And I have this real coconut stuff,

so it is a coconut whipped cream that I'm gonna put in here.

(whooshing)

Just 'cause there's a little bit of white usually

in these things that I saw.

So, gonna now pour in some blue.

Add in a bit more pink.

Pink's kinda mixing with the blue,

so I think I'm gonna try and add a little bit more of this.

(whooshing)

(laughing)

This is a good strategy, just put whipped cream

on everything to solve your problems.

(muffled speaking)

There we go.

Does that look like a unicorn to you?

Nearly.

I mean, I think it looks pretty good.

Okay, so I'm gonna stir this up just a little bit

to get all of the colors mixed in.

And now, of course, any unicorn drink needs sprinkles,

so I have my sprinkles handy,

and I'm ready to add the whip.

(whooshing)

Guys, this looks so good, I'm not even kidding.

Like, look how much whipped cream.

Sprinkles.

See, they're literally just flying everywhere,

this is always what happens.

Sprinkles are basically, they're like, the glitter of food.

(rattling)

Yum.

Okay guys, so this just happened.

The horror.

Literally just destroyed my frappucino.

But, on the bright side, I was just about to put this

lid on it, so, let's do that.

Can you tell I've never worked at Starbucks?

Or like, really even go there?

I think I should add more whipped cream,

'cause I think it usually like, comes out of it.

So I'm gonna do that anyway.

And I also spilled all the sprinkles on the ground, too.

It's a real good day (laughs).

The unicorn frappucino will make it better, though.

Alright, are you guys ready to get back into this?

'Cause definitely am.

I really want this to look legit.

So, I didn't even realize until this moment

how much whipped cream they put on these things.

(whooshing)

We're gonna put more.

(laughing)

I just want it to come out of the top

like they normally do.

There we go.

Add our straw back in there.

♫ Because I love you

Oh my gosh.

Alright, I just want you to get right up in here with me,

because I'm really excited about this.

Let's give it a try.

♫ Because I love you

♫ Because I love you

Mmm

It's like the fake healthy thing I always wanted.

Okay guys, that is it for today's video,

if you liked it be sure to give it a thumbs up,

subscribe if you haven't already,

and comment down below letting me know what else

you wanna see me do.

And I will see you in the next video,

have a great day.

Bye.

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God is for Me | Maker Fun Factory Music Video | Group Publishing - Duration: 3:12.

Thanks for watching Lifetree Kids!

Looking out, it's a great big world

Where do I go? How do I fit in?

Gotta keep this one thing on my mind

Maker of all the universe is on my side

And if God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

He is my strength, he is my friend forever

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

Looking out, it's a great big world

Where do I go? How do I fit in?

Gotta keep this one thing on my mind

Maker of all the universe is on my side

And if God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

He is my strength; he is my friend forever

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

When I just don't understand, God is for me

When life doesn't go the way I planned, God is for me

When I just don't understand, God is for me

When life doesn't go the way I planned, God is for me

And if God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

He is my strength; he is my friend forever

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

God is for me

Who can be, who can be against me?

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HI GUYS !!!! Welcome to Farming Simulator 17 Mods Channel in this video I will show You The CaseIH Magnum 380 bo Knoedel.

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Nightcore - Shelter (Slushii Remix) [Subtitles/CC] - Duration: 2:56.

i could never find the right way to tell you

have you noticed i've been gone?

cause i left behind the home that you made me

but i will carry it along

mm it's a long way forward

so trust in me

i'll give them shelter like you've done for me

and i know i'm not alone

you'll be watching over us

until you're gone

you'll be watching over us

i could never find the right way to tell you

have you noticed i've been gone?

cause i left behind the home that you made me

but i will carry it along

mm it's a long way forward

so trust in me

i'll give them shelter like you've done for me

and i know i'm not alone

you'll be watching over us

until you're gone

you'll be watching over us

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WATCH CBS Reporter Tries To Embarrass Trump, Gets Rude Awakening Instead - Duration: 3:59.

WATCH CBS Reporter Tries To Embarrass Trump, Gets Rude Awakening Instead

President Donald Trump's contentious relationship with the mainstream media continued over the

weekend as he sat down with CBS' Face the Nation to mark his first one-hundred days

in office.

When host John Dickerson used the opportunity to try to embarrass Trump, the president made

sure that the liberal reporter was in for a rude awakening instead.

While discussing the issue of being "out-traded" by other countries, President Trump saw an

opportunity to call out the press for their blatantly biased reporting, and he took it.

Dickerson was left shocked as his guest took a shot at him personally for being a member

of the "fake media."

"I mean our country is being out-traded; at every single point, we're losing tremendous

amounts of money on trade, and I think actually I have been very consistent," Trump said

on Sunday.

"You know, it's very funny when the fake media goes out – you know, which we call

the mainstream media, which sometimes I must say is you."

When Dickerson asked if Trump was referring to him personally, the president delivered

an epic insult, saying, "I love your show, I call it 'Deface the Nation,' but your

show is sometimes not exactly correct."

The pair went on to spar over China and currency manipulation.

"But when they talk about currency manipulation – and I did say I would call China if they

were a currency manipulator early in my tenure, and then I get there.

Number one, they – as soon as I got elected – they stopped," Trump said.

"They're not going, it's not going down anymore, their currency."

"But that had been true before," argued Dickerson.

"That had been true during the campaign."

"No, not true to the extent that we're talking about," said Trump.

"But, much more important than that, as to when – but, you know, it did stop and

I was talking about it all during the campaign, and I would say that I was the one that got

them to stop – but, forget that," the president added.

"Somebody said, 'Oh, you didn't call him a currency manipulator,'" Trump continued,

referring to his recent meeting with Chinese President Xi Jinping.

"I believe that President Xi is working to try and resolve a very big problem for

China also, and that's North Korea.

Can you imagine if I say, 'Hey, by the way, how are you doing with North Korea?

Also, we're going to announce that you're a currency manipulator tomorrow.'"

Indeed, the media seems to have a serious issue with looking at the bigger picture.

In the face of increased tensions with North Korea, we need China on our side, not to have

them ticked off by a president who engages in senseless name-calling.

While the press continues their incessant crusade against Donald Trump, seemingly still

miffed about Hillary Clinton's historic loss, the president will continue making America

great again one day at a time.

Whether John Dickerson and his ilk will ever give Trump credit for the progress he is making

remains to be seen, but I wouldn't hold my breath if I were you.

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Gotta Zayn | Teen Almanac - Duration: 1:54.

[Ian] Gotta Zayn. [Stella] Oh my god, that's my husband.

♪♪

[Stella] I say it all the time. "Gotta Zayn." [Subashri] No, no one says that.

[Stella] Okay, so this is where it came from, I can give you this little backstory. [Subashri] Even Felicia's better!

So y'all know One Direction. There's Harry, Zayn, Niall, Louis...

Wasn't there a guy named Style? Oh no, that was Harry Style.

And, um wait, am I missing any? I think there's five. No there's four. There's five!

Niall, Louis, Zayn, Harry, and LIAM LIAM LIAM! Liam.

[Subashri] Liam Gallagard? [Stella] "Gallagard."

Gallagher? Galla-something.

Stop, that's a different band. So um, they broke up, right? The five of them broke up.

Zayn was the first one to leave. So that's why they say "Gotta Zayn."

"Gotta Zayn!" Because he left the band. Gotta leave!

So saying "Gotta Zayne," is like, you're doing what he did. Basically saying "I gotta go."

Not like "Bye, Felicia," which is like actually going, it's like saying "goodbye" but something

but "Gotta Zayn" is like saying the event in one word. In two words.

[Ian] Like, where did you guys first hear the phrase "Gotta Zayn"?

[Tanushri] School! [Stella] No, not even school. It was Tumblr. It was Twumb - I mean Twitter.

I heard it from Stella, 'cause she's over there saying "Gotta Zayn!" in a porta potty.

[Tanushri] In a porta potty! [Stella] I never said that in a porta potty!

You said that to the toilet because you were sad that you had to leave.

[Ian] Define "Gotta Zayn."

[Google Assistant] "Gotta Zayn," it's like saying "gotta go," "gotta leave," because Zayn left One Direction.

Example: "Sorry, gotta Zayn. I need to get home before curfew."

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NUEVO Detrás del Juego CAPITULO 7 (Yandere Simulator Series) - Duration: 20:06.

Previously on behind the game:

What is that look?

You attacked Oka Ruto in the women's room?

No...

You promised thar you would not hut anyone again, Ayano!

I didn't mess with anyone

Surely it was some other serial killer that haunts the institute

You don't answer my calls, you dont answer my messages! What is so important that you don't want to talk to me?

... I'll call you at night.

Don't you dare to ...!

You just spend it here. You need company!

you don't have to worry about me.

You hate having to be behind me all the time and I understand

So ... I'll see you later.

I want you to know ...

...the reason why I'm in love with you.

I still have hopes that that good and brave girl is still inside of you.

I saw the recording of Ronshaku that you published in the internet!

I would like you to help me with a ... boy.

Make way!

you would be my perfect romeo ...

Kizana is the best actress in the whole school, why do you strive for if you know you can not replace her?

I'll tell you one last time, if you're not going to help, then get out of here.

*Sighs *

Okay ...

Love, who was the first to incite me to inquire; He gave me advice and I lent him my eyes. I am not a pilot;

Yet, though thou mayest be as far as the longest shore that bathes the farthest sea, I would venture for such merchandise.

You know that the veil of the night covers my face; If it were, a virginal blush you would see dye my cheeks from what you heard me pronounce tonight.

I would like to keep the forms, willing to deny what I have spoken; But goodbye compliments! You love Me? I know that you will say:

yes, I will believe you under your word. However, if you swear, it could be false, and the perjury of ...

...what are you laughing at?

Sorry, I'm sorry, go on

Shh!!

I don't force you to help me, so if you want you can ...

Uh?

Excuse me, do you know where Romeo and Juliet's book is?

Oh, hello Budo.

What brings you here?

Well, I ... I was coming for that book. Excuse me, can you give it to me when you're done?

Sure.

By the way, thanks for making me realize who Ronshaku really is. I owe you one.

It's nothing.

It looks like you have more competition.

Agh!

It's got to be a joke ...

I have a great idea!

What is it?

Forget about Taro and go out with me. You'd save yourself reading all this boring book.

Do not you have a club to teach?

Everyone pay attention!

Principal Shuyona has ordered that club classes be canceled today. Therefore, everyone must return to their homes. Without exceptions.

* Whispers * Will it be for the disappearance of Mizuki?

What about her?

* Whispers * They have not been able to contact her or her family for a week.

It's very strange ...

Is that a joke? And what about the auditions for my theatre play?

I'm sorry, but today you can not do your auditions

This is not possible ... I will not allow a foolish order from the director to delay the preparations for the presentation.

Those who want to participate in the auditions for my work of Romeo and Juliet, then after school come to my house to be evaluated by me. It is understood?

But ... Your house? Do not you think it would be better to wait until tomorrow?

I've waited long enough! If they are going to participate in my work, the least I ask is responsibility and effort or they are out.

I'll go.

Eh ..and I- I!

Very well. See you all after school.

*chat*

Info: I need you to come right now. Ayano: I can not. I'm on my way to Kizana's house for the auditions.

I hope I can trust you Ayano. You were very touched by the poor history of Budo's past ... uh?

Uh?

What the ...?

This is the second time I have to repair these cameras. Where…?

Castiel ...?

I'm soooo excited friend! You will surely have the role you are looking for!

Yes, you're Yan Chan. You will surely get it!

Hi Amai. What are you doing here?

I came to support my best friend.

B...best friend ?? There must be some confusion ... I am her best friend! Right BFF?

Anyway... I do not understand why it was necessary for them to come ... and you

Well, it would seem that the whole school came here. I was not going to stay outside.

It's not fair! I wanted the role of Romeo. He did not even audition ...

It's the hairstyle. Girls love that style.

Great, I'll have to do the audition in front of the whole damn institute ...

Okay, everyone to their places. Let the auditions begin!

Follow me please. I found her this morning when ...

What ...? She was here!

Well, there is no evidence again. Let's move on.

No proof? And what about that huge pool of blood on the floor?

Did a student have her period? Believe me Castiel, you're new here. This school always called us for these things and there was never enough evidence ...

Enough what? For years students have been disappearing in this Academy without finding their whereabouts.

What else evidence do you need to know that strange things are happening at this institute?

Academy High School needs to close its doors.

What? Listen, I'll look into the case so they'll be okay, okay? I'll just go and talk to the director and sort things out.

Do not you think it's a bit ... exaggerated?

Do you mean the huge mansion you have or why you have your own stage in your own home?

Both

Yan Chan, It's true that you will do the audition?

Yes Taro. She will audition to be a substitute for Kizana.

Hehe It would be weird if we had to act together, do not you think?

Osana will also audition for that post. It's weird, she've never shown interest in theater before. But you know how she is ...

Come here, my Romeo. Juliet needs you on stage!

Well, I'll go practice. I wish you luck. You're sure to do it great

"Sure you'll do great" * says it by mocking Taro *

What was not your best friend?

My best friend and rival, yes.

Okay, now those who continue to ask to be auditioned to take my place to be my replacement if something happens to happen to me.

They are clearly wasting their time, but so are the rules in the theater. Let the auditions begin!!

Oh my God ... Help please!

*Wishpers* Taro ... Taro ... Taro ....

Quiet, you'll be fine ...

What ...? damn…

We have to go right now with the Yamada boy.

N-N-It's not that I love you stupid! i-i-I mean ... Juliet does! Not me!

I understood Osana. Could you go on with your lines?

Do not tell me what a fool! I know what I have to do ...!

Next!

Ayano Aishi, takes the stage.

Good luck friend!

You'll do great!

Good luck Yan Chan

I swear, my love,

by the rays of the moon that silver the glass of These trees ...

Don't swear.

Even though I am filled with joy to see you, I do not want to tonight. Hear such promises that seem violent and too fast.

And you do not give me more comfort than that?

I'll just tell you two words.

If your love is honored, if you want to get married, let the messenger know I will send, how and when you want to celebrate the sacred ceremony.

I will sacrifice my life and I will go after you for the world ...

Stop!

Congratulations, you have the job, now get off the stage

and everyone who has been elected will attend the club tomorrow to begin the rehearsals.

They are not allowed to leave, but they will be outside. Now all go.

Congratulations Yan Chan! You did great

Yes, and I'm glad you've overcome your shyness. How you feel?

Well, I guess you'll get better

Hi...

Hello...

My name is Shin. I'm in the occult club with Oka.

Oh. And how is she after what happened?

*Awkward silence*

I wanted to know if ... if you had seen her.

She has not presented herself to the club for ... a few days and I thought maybe I could find her here with you...

No, we have not seen her. But we can help you find it tomorrow at school.

Thank you ...

I'm afraid... If something about supernatural has been happening to her ...

Bye…

Always with your bodyguard back...

Be careful Aishi ... you have not yet come to know me ...

Thank you for unnecessarily accompanying me to my house for more than I deny you multiple times.

You're welcome ... I think.

Hey ... You did not tell me how you plan to get rid of Kizana in a non-violent way in which everything ends in deaths and suffering.

Relax, I have something in mind.

Do you promise nobody will get hurt?

Why do you make me promise it again if you do not believe me anyway?

It's hard for me to believe you after knowing what you've done with Saki.

I did not mess with Oka. Understand it.

You swear?

... yes

Are not you going to ask me to stay for dinner?

No.

*laughs*

Goodbye Yan Chan. I'll come by tomorrow for you.

Agh...

Uh? ... Can I help you?

Good evening, I'm Rebecca, and he's Castiel. Police Officer

... Am I in trouble?

Probably, can we come in?

Sure...

Did I do something wrong?

We need to know what relationship she has with student Saki Miyu.

Saki and I never started a specific conversation.

She was just the best friend of ... one of my classmate.

I don't understand, why are you here?

Where were you this afternoon after school?

In a friend's house, why?

I need you to be more specific.

In the house of Kizana Sunobu What is happening?

Your name has been mentioned by the alleged murderer Saki Miyu and the recent victim "Hiroko Suzu".

Therefore you will have to answer our questions with total sincerity to prove your innocence.

What's happening, brother?

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تعليم دهانات تتاثر بالاضاءة ديكور خيال - Duration: 11:59.

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Top 5 Call of Duty WWII Multiplayer Features We're Most Hyped For - Duration: 4:00.

The Call of Duty: World War II reveal trailer has now dropped, offering a brief peek at

the single-player campaign.

This year's CoD promises to be a brutal re-introduction to the World War II setting,

with the trailer featuring lots of death and destruction as the mayhem of war unfolds.

During the reveal event, Sledgehammer Games spoke with several media outlets about the

game, offering details that weren't conveyed in the trailer.

Some of this information concerned the multiplayer, the portion of the game that the majority

of players are most interested in.

Today's Top 5 will focus on what we know about CoD: WWII's online components, and

why they have us excited.

This is Mack, for PlayStation LifeStyle, here with the Top 5 CoD WWII Multiplayer Features

We're Most Hyped For!

Not to be confused with the Call of Duty game mode of the same name, Headquarters is something

brand new to the franchise.

It's essentially a social space where players can meet with dozens of other soldiers and

interact outside of the warzone.

If you've ever played Destiny and been to the Tower or the Reef, you should have a good

idea of what this will look like.

Sledgehammer Games is hoping this brings characters to life, with some form of avatar customization

presumably being a prominent feature.

So long as both sides have an equal chance of winning, asymmetrical game modes can make

for brilliant fun in a shooter.

You'd hope that a Call of Duty developer would be the master of balanced gameplay at

this point, and so we're cautiously optimistic that this new "War" game mode will be

great.

Axis and Allies are pitted against one another, with players reenacting key battle scenarios.

The round will be split up into stages, with players trying to push forward and complete

unique objectives.

As one team succeeds, the other will fall back.

It sounds very much like Battlefield 1's Operations mode, which is a good thing!

While Sledgehammer Games do seem determined to deliver a gritty, personal experience in

the setting of the largest worldwide conflict in history; telling the story of ordinary

men turned soldiers as they fight to preserve freedom in the face of tyranny…

They've still managed to find room to squeeze in some zombies.

Yep, Nazi Zombies returns, only this time is supposed to be "new and original,"

and even more "adrenaline filled" and "dark."

This entirely new Zombies mode will follow "the story of the Third Reich's desperate

attempt to create an army in the final stages of the war."

Aside from those few details, the developers are remaining tight-lipped on the topic.

But, to be honest, just the confirmation of a rebooted zombies mode has us excited.

Call of Duty has been stuck in the future for several years now, with all three development

studios trying their hands at sci-fi experiences.

With CoD: WWII, Sledgehammer Games has left the advanced warfare behind, taking the franchise

back "to its roots."

With the majority of the main storyline taking place in the European theater between 1944

and 1945, along with some flashbacks of important events from 1940 to 1944, there's potential

for a lot of variety when it comes to the maps players will be fighting on.

Omaha Beach will surely play a role in separating the sweaties from the scrubs, and an encounter

in Paris during the Battle of the Bulge seems likely.

Returning to the past means abandoning futuristic tech like the exo-suit and combat rigs.

It also means no more double jumps or running along walls, we assume.

Just as we've heard a large part of the Call of Duty community screaming for a return

to "boots on the ground" gameplay, we're now going to hear the phrase overused in marketing.

"Boots on the ground" this, "boots on the ground" that!

Thankfully, we're looking forward to a more *grounded* gameplay experience.

It's not that exo-suits were awful, as I personally loved Black Ops 3's implementation,

it's just that it's been three years in a row now, and it's time for a break.

This has been Top 5 CoD WWII Multiplayer Features We're Most Hyped For.

Are you excited for Call of Duty this year?

Let us know in the comments down below.

If you enjoyed this video, hit the Like button, and be sure to subscribe if you haven't

already.

This has been Mack, for PlayStation LifeStyle, goodbye.

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Michelle Obama Confesses To Deception In The White House At The Bitter End - Duration: 4:23.

Michelle Obama Confesses To Deception In The White House At The Bitter End

When race-baiting politics and divisive tactics are the central themes of an entire career,

deception of the public becomes second nature.

Nobody knows this better than Michelle Obama, who just revealed an intimate example of deception

in the White House.

Since the Obama family appeared on the world stage more than a decade ago, we have witnessed

one act of deception after another.

Much of the time, the lies centered on the background and history of the former First

Lady and her husband.

Take, for example, the debunked lies about the "hardships" Michelle and Barack Obama

each endured as black youths.

Then, of course, there are the well-chronicled controversies surrounding Barack Obama's

alleged Muslim heritage and his hard-to-verify birth certificate.

We could go on for some time lamenting the number of times the Obamas deceived us, but

now that they are out of public office, hopefully for good, it is likely that little untruths

will become easier to discern, as much of the political pressure is off.

Consider the Obamas' last night in the White House, for example.

According to Today, Michelle Obama revealed some behind-the-scenes happenings from the

Obama family's last moments in the White House before President Donald Trump moved

in.

Of the Obama daughters, the former First Lady said, "They had a sleepover, because of

course on Inauguration Day, because my girls are so normal, they're like, 'Well, eight

girls are gonna be sleeping here because it's our last time, and we want pizza and we want

nuggets.'

And it's like, really?"

She added, "So that moment of transition, right before the doors opened and we welcomed

in the new family, our kids were leaving out the back door in tears, saying goodbye to

people."

It is understandable that a mother and her children would tear up a bit when leaving

a home that they had spent almost a decade in, even if that mother is a self-described

independent, feminist like Michelle Obama.

However, the ever vigilant mom was quick to realize that the public eye is always watching.

"I didn't want to have tears in my eyes because people would swear I was crying because

of the new president," she said.

Evidently, Michelle Obama is passionate about her left-leaning political beliefs, but not

so passionate that she would want the world to know how devastated she was to watch the

Trump family move in.

We can understand why she felt like crying, as when Donald Trump trounced Hillary Clinton

in the election, he was certain to follow up by washing her husband's presidential

legacy from the face of the Earth.

All of that work from the Obamas was soon to be down the drain with the rest of the

Washington, D.C., swamp.

The admission about the sad exit from the White House and the public relations concern

involved were not the only blockbusters Michelle Obama dropped in her recent Orlando appearance.

As reported by AOL, she also said that she never intends to run for office herself.

"I wouldn't ask my children to do this again because, when you run for higher office,

it's not just you, it's your whole family," she said.

Hopefully, Michelle was telling the truth in that last statement.

Of course, it will be almost four years until the next president is sworn in, which allows

plenty of time for her to backtrack.

On the other hand, if Trump continues to succeed for the next four years, none of the Obamas

will want any part of a political debate against him, anyway.

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Meditation Kicks Depression's Ass For Good - Duration: 15:46.

Meditation Kicks Depression�s Ass For Good

By Dreamcatcher

Depression is more than just a bummer. It�s a stone cold killer.

According to the World Health Organization (WHO) depression is now the leading cause

of disability in the world, affecting more than 350 million people worldwide. In fact,

1 in 20 people reported having an episode of depression the previous year in a recent

global WHO survey.

Even worse, depression is also the leading cause of suicide, which has now passed up

car accidents as the number one cause of accident related deaths in the United States, according

to the American Journal of Public Health.

Depression has also become a multi-billion dollar business for pharmaceutical companies

that produce antidepressant Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs) like Zoloft and

Prozac, medications that supposedly correct a �chemical imbalance� of neurotransmitters

like serotonin in the brains of depressed people. We have all seen the ads.

But a 2008 study at Florida State University found that there was no real scientific evidence

to support the chemical imbalance story, no matter how widespread.

Instead, researchers found that the theory has been �misrepresented� to the public

by corporations and the media and furthermore that much of the perceived efficacy of SSRI

antidepressant medications is due to the placebo effect.

In spite of this and other similar findings, antidepressants continue to be the most prescribed

drugs in the country.

More than 30 million Americans take them even though their therapeutic value is dubious

and they are linked to a growing number of serious side effects � including, most recently,

birth defects in children of pregnant women who use them.

When it comes to the real cause of depression, many scientific studies have shown depressed

people actually have more asymmetry in their brain function than normal, especially between

the right and left frontal lobes; areas responsible for thought and emotional processing.

This asymmetry is even considered a marker, or a predictor, of depression in people and

is associated with depressive thought patterns like hopelessness.

And what causes this asymmetry? The answer is stress. Depression, like Post Traumatic

Stress Disorder (PTSD), is actually caused by brain damage from stress.

This explains why numerous aspects of modern life, including student loan debt, are linked

to depression � the higher the debt, the higher the levels of stress and depression.

This opens up a can of worms about how society is structured, but it also begs the question:

If stress causes depression, can calmness reverse it?

Meditation, the age-old technique of focusing on the present in order to dwell in a state

of tranquility � the ultimate stress buster.

Amazingly, a slew of recent studies have found that meditation does actually �shape�

the brain; it corrects damage from stress, enhances connectivity between the two lobes

and even promotes cell growth in key regions that are underdeveloped in depressed people,

like the hippocampus.

This means that meditators are changing the actual structure of their brains (see video

above), thereby rewiring their emotional reactions and thought patterns to a calmer baseline

on a physical level. This makes them more resilient to depression permanently.

Studies have shown conclusively that meditation is more effective than antidepressants in

preventing a relapse of depression, and a first-of-its-kind study last year found the

practice to be just as effective as one-on-one cognitive behavioral therapy.

But studies aside, the question remains: can meditation completely cure an illness that

is currently plaguing the entire world?

To find out, Reset�s Ocean Malandra contacted Spike Gillespie, author of the newly published

book: Sit. Stay. Heal. How Meditation Changed My Mind, Grew My Heart and Saved My Ass.

After suffering from depression off and on for much of her adult life, Spike decided

in December 2012 (in the midst of a particularly heavy relapse) to devote herself to meditating

every day for a year � an endeavor she also recorded online by posting daily on her blog

Meditation Kicks Ass.

Three years of daily practice later, Spike remains depression free.

A resident of Austin, Texas, she now teaches a simple non-sectarian meditation technique

based on observing the breath, bringing the mind back to the present and the breath when

it wanders.

Spike says that anyone with a desire to try can get started practicing meditation to reap

its benefits. Her story is an inspiration and a testament to the healing powers of our

own mind.

Reset: Let�s start at the beginning. I know you say you had bouts of depression since

your teenage years, but about what age was that? And when did you start practicing meditation?

Spike: I can only take an educated guess.

Based on the fact I started binge-drinking at fourteen, and also that adolescent body

chemistry changes began the year before, I�m thinking my depression started very early

in my teen years.

I want to clarify that I cannot remember any protracted bouts of being leveled by depression

in my early teens, but also remember this was in the �70s, before we had the sort

of common usage terms for depression, self-medication, and treatment.

Plus I come from a very blue-collar background where you aren�t �allowed� to be depressed

� you get your ass up and you go do what is expected of you.

My earliest recollection of meditation is these super mini-meditations � like a minute

long � we did in Taekwondo, which I studied for a couple of years in my mid-thirties.

That wet my appetite. I was on a road trip in the early aughts when I heard about a Vesak

Day celebration at a monastery outside of St. Louis.

I knew nothing of Vesak Day but was interested in learning about Buddhism. I went and heard

Thubten Ch�dr�n speak and meditated with a very welcoming community and that was the

start of it.

Reset: Did you feel benefit from your early practices? If so, how?

Spike: Memory is a funny thing. Again, I don�t have any keen memories of magical enlightenment.

And my practice now compared to the early days is a lot different and, I think, yields

more noticeable results.

But yes, I did benefit from early practices because for one thing, I think anyone who

sits will experience some benefit and also because the early sitting led to the sitting

I do now.

So it was foundation work, even if I had a hard time being consistent or sitting for

more than five minutes.

Those early sessions were, I think now, very much about learning what it means to set intent,

and over time my intent to dedicate myself to a serious practice took root.

Reset: Did you ever try anti-depressants? If so, what was the experience?

Spike: Yes. Very, very briefly I tried four or five different anti-depressants/ anti-anxiety

medications. The results were always, always disastrous. Prozac made me very speedy and

unable to concentrate and I lost a lot of weight.

I was also still a drinker then, which is a bad combination. Effexor I tried just once,

and immediately felt dizzy and a momentary fuzzy blindness and I wanted to puke.

Wellbutrin made me nuts. Zoloft gave me a horrific headache. It�s important to factor

in that while I believe my reactions were mostly physical, there was likely some psychosomatic

stuff at play.

Reset: In researching this article I found that a lot of Buddhists and meditation practitioners

are reluctant to say that meditation cures depression, although in my opinion that�s

exactly what the whole �End of Suffering Bit� in Buddhism is all about. What�s

your view?

Spike: I want to be careful here to speak only to my experience. And yes, in my experience,

I say with absolute certainty meditation cured my depression. Since I began a serious practice

at the end of 2012 I have not had a bout of depression.

That is astonishing. Well actually these days it�s not astonishing, it just is. But with

each year that passed � and I am well into my third year now � I was amazed. It�s

like those signs you see at train yards: �X Number of Days Since Our Last Accident.�

I�m going on a whole lot of days since I last fell into bed and could barely function

for weeks at a time.

I still have down days and last February my PTSD got triggered and I had a few very, very

hard days. But my practice saw me through that. I did not fall into the hole.

I cannot know the future, maybe one day depression will return. But it seems very unlikely to

me, barring some incredible external tragedy, that I will ever again suffer like I used

to.

Because now, even days when I suffer, I have a crystal clear awareness of impermanence

and I know my suffering will soon ease. It always does.

Reset: Science shows that meditators do effectively re-shape their brains, leading to lasting

change. But in terms of the subjective experience, can you tell me what the biggest noticeable

differences were in terms of your thought process and emotional reactions after your

now almost three years of daily practice?

Spike: I like to joke with my friends and meditation students that the biggest change

is that I have a tremendous awareness now of how messy I am, that the meditation hasn�t

�cured� anything, simply made me extremely awake to my tics and traits and neuroses and

bad habits and how many bazillion miles away I am from even spotting the trailhead with

the sign that says, �Enlightenment This Way.�

The reality though, is that my awareness, and my awareness of my awareness, is a fantastic

tool.

So let�s say I am on Facebook � I have an extremely active wall and I am a very opinionated

person and people love to show up and argue with me sometimes. I am the absolute queen

of taking the bait.

I am a troll�s online dream date. I�m not just fascinated by the way certain people

feel a need to get in my face, but I�m fascinated by my sometimes non-equanimity in response.

I don�t always post a smartass reply � but often I do. Still, I have an awareness in

my heart and mind that I am feeling angry or irritated by an offhand remark of a stranger.

This in turn leads me to step back internally and say, �Hey, what�s all that about?

Why are you focusing so much energy on this stupid remark when that person already forgot

making it?�

When I use my awareness to examine my reactions, I can see:

�Hey, this is flashing you back to being bossed around as a kid by older sisters and

an angry dad. You are reacting to the past. This defensiveness is life long and it causes

you suffering. Pay attention. Work on that.�

In this way, I have become less impulsive, less fly-off-the-handle. This not only allows

me to be less of an asshole in the eyes of others (not that I�m super worried about

what they think, but what I mean is I don�t want to cause others to suffer), it also brings

me a growing calm that informs my life now. My definition of happiness is calmness.

Reset: I really like that definition; it�s the opposite of stress and depression. So

do you think meditation should be taught in school?

Spike: I like to say when I am king (because I will be a woman king) everyone is learning

martial arts and meditation. EVERYONE. It needn�t be rooted in religious practice.

Mindful breathing for everyone. This past summer I led a couple of meditation camps

for kids.

I was beside myself with joy at how many of them showed up and already knew what meditation

was. I think if we included meditation in the curriculum it would help across the board

� it would help with communication, concentration, compassion, all of it.

Reset: Beautiful. Ok, last question: What advice and resources would you share with

someone that is suffering from depression and wants to try meditation but is not sure

where to start?

Spike: I would say to a depressed person, �Look, I totally get it. Depression is such

a beast. You feel like you can�t even function so how are you going to meditate?

I suggest you just sit up � in a chair, in your bed if you can�t get out of bed,

or on a pillow on the floor if you want. Close your eyes.

Breathe in and breathe out and as you do just note to yourself silently I am breathing in,

I am breathing out. At first you might only be able to manage a few breaths or a minute.

That�s okay. You are not doing it wrong. You are trying, so you are doing it right.�