Waching daily Sep 26 2018

I really like the beginning of

this song because it sounds a

lot like Blade Runner and

that's pretty cool. The sound of

it is very like... It's like a

drawn out brass sound I think.

I would say brass, I'm not

entirely sure. It's just a very

like ethereal, atmospheric

sound to it.

I actually use a lot images in

the verses and the lyrics

of the song.

So the first verse, if I would

say... the first verse would be

based on alcohol, right? I use a

lot of words that deal with the

liquid aspect of it and how it

kind of slurs your

sense of perception.

In verse two, it is more about

some kind of smoking substance.

There's a lot of imagery about

like vapor, smoke,

whatever describes that

kind of feeling.

Cut.

Reset on that one. That one it

looked like you were looking

down the lens. Were you

looking above or...?

I was trying to look at that,

but it's pretty close to the...

Let's go even higher.

The fact that we were doing

something a little bit with

Alice in Wonderland, that

there's that obvious theme and

reference and allusion to and

then trying to adapt them

to the new age and just do

doing something with them.

So being able to take

something like Alice in

Wonderland and incorporate

that into this and throw a

little twist into it was

pretty fun.

This is...

Get out of the way.

Oh are you doing a thing?

No.

Alright, this is Abigail.

Hello.

She's the Alice.

Sup.

Hi. Sorry, I'm like a

mess right now.

Do you go by Abby or Abigail?

I go by bagel.

So my character's always sort

of like a tempting, mysterious

figure that can't really be

figured out. And he was talking

about how it represents when

you go through hard times,

you kind of lose yourself and

I really connected with that.

Kay, let's reset.

Anything on the... any notes?

No, I like that one.

You like that one?

Yeah I like that one, too.

Yeah I like that.

We wanted her to be a guide,

right? Because the guy, the

main character who is me, is

the one going through the

lyrics pretty much. He's going

through the journey of having

lost himself, and then trying to

go deep, find it, bring it back,

and be able to move on or

something. The idea just

started blossoming from a

simple concept of just like a

bedroom scene into like noir

like 1950's old America and

just like psychedelic imagery.

It just evolved and then we're

like, you know what?

Why don't we just go

as big as we can?

Everything that we have looks

as good if not better than what

I imagined while we were

talking about it. I'm super

happy with the black light stuff

That's going to look amazing.

This underwater stuff is going

to be cool, and what we have

in the room looks great.

I did another production

actually where I met our DP on

this that was like a period

piece and it has a very similar

feel. That project had a very

large budget and this project

had a decent size budget.

And they look pretty similar

and it's amazing that we

actually pulled that off.

The black light we were

originally going to have all the

invisible ink writing on the

wall, like all over the wall.

Just crazy writing. And we

ended up changing that to

just on him.

I was just waiting outside the

motel room, you know, taking

care of my own business and I

got a call from Jake, the

director, and he's like, hey we

need you to come in here

put some orange stuff on your

lips and kiss John on the

cheek. And I said huh? He goes

We need you to kiss John on

the cheek.

And I said, is that real?

And he goes, yeah we need

you to kiss John on the cheek.

Alright.

So I went in there and the

black light's on and it all

looked real cool. And they

handed me this thing, and I

put it all over my lips.

It turned out I asked later.

Literally anybody could've

done that.

They were like, somebody

needs to kiss John on the

cheek and nobody said

anything so then the director

was just like, hey let me just

get Alex to do it. And for some

reason I never asked any

questions about it, so I guess

I'm the only one that was man

enough to do it.

Beautiful. Okay I'm going to cut

for a second. When you do the

ruffles, make your dress go off

more to the side. If you can.

Kay, ready?

Yup.

Ripples. Speeding.

Action.

I wasn't expecting the pool

stuff to be as hard as it was.

It was definitely very difficult

because I've always been like a

strong swimmer my whole life,

but being underwater and

having to like...

A lot of things with acting is

you do breathing exercises.

And you can't really do

breathing exercises

underwater cause I'm not a

fish so...

Once I kind of centered myself

and was able to like change

my method of how I center

myself like in the moment of

doing it, but afterwards I think

it went really well, but yeah.

Lots of factors that you don't

think about when you're

in the water.

We were definitely going to

have more underwater scenes

and it's just difficult to get

good quality shots underwater

so we simplified it a little bit

The best part of working on

this was definitely renting a

1960's Chrysler Newport and

driving it all the

way through LA.

If you want to go and get high

with me. Just kidding I don't

smoke the devil's lettuce.

I tried to get on the freeway

with it, and it almost stalled on

me like right there. I tried to

speed up onto the on ramp

and it was like

POP POP POP

And I was like AHHH

And then it kicked back in

and it went.

The car?

Honestly, I think we were just

watching this Netflix show

called Peaky Blinders.

And then it just...

We just wanted to do stuff like

old school, and then some

people in our crew really like

cars back in the day. Some of

us like the fashion and then, I

think vintage is like so trendy

in a way and then everyone

had their own favorite thing

from that past and we just

combined it all together and

then tried to make it like

one cohesive look.

I feel like its...

I've always said with acting

and like streaming on Twitch

and gaming, like I've always

wanted to be a person that

like connects with others. Like

I want people to feel like

they're not alone, because for

so much of my life I felt like I

was very alone in my feelings

and I didn't know anyone that

related. So when videos like

this are made... like it doesn't

seem like a big deal when

you're here doing it, but when

it gets released and there's

that one person that's thinking

to themselves, I've been

through this and it is hard to

separate my emotions from

who I am as a person and it's

easy to let that like suck me in

and overpower me, but I

overcame that.

And it's good, you know?

Reaching out to people.

You're trying to find yourself.

You pretty much lost who you

are as a being, maybe through

some trauma. Maybe through

hardship, heartbreak,

whatever the problem might

be and it's very common for a

lot of people to turn to

substances and endless

pointless relationships, but

sometimes there is one

person, the guide, that pulls

you down so deep that you

actually find yourself through

them. Maybe how you were

before. And find out who you

are and just come back to the

surface. That's what this

song is about.

The best part about working

on this project was making a

product that our client and

artist, Jonathan, was happy

with. You know, my job as

director to see that the

client's happy. That's great

because that means I did a

good job and I can feel

confident about it.

So that's huge.

The problem...

Is it good there or

is it perfect there?

It's good there.

Just good?

No, you said just good.

It's perfect. Sorry, perfect.

Perfect.

We did compromise here and

there, but some of the major

stuff we were able to just

knock out. That surprised me.

When the car rolled in, that

surprised me in a good way.

How the wardrobe fit. How the

room looked. Just like having

the pieces come together

just from little scattered

thoughts and just putting it

into the camera.

I think just the first reveal

for me was...

I think that had the

biggest reaction from me.

And how do you feel now

that it's done?

Like a weight has been lifted.

Stressing about everything

pulling together especially

cause we had to film it in like

one day.

But damn.

We did it.

That's good.

That's crazy.